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Closed off, was never vacant, but the scent of your fragrance
Closed off, previously not emotionally accessible, but your scent had a strong impact.
Was hypnotising smile was vibrant and it is sending me places
Your vibrant smile was captivating and led to transformative experiences.
Like different worlds entirely while I be focused on silently
Focused on silent contemplation, experiencing different worlds in thought.
Making my way to my dream land it seems grand but I was just latent
Heading towards a grand dreamland, though latent and undiscovered.
Before the days music took over
Life before the dominance of music.
before the waves changed of you posers
Before societal changes, possibly referring to people pretending to be something they are not.
Before I made way brought you closer, before I made way then it was over
Making efforts to bring someone closer, but eventually, it ended.
You gave me energy, like no one else did
You provided unique energy, unmatched by others.
But now I'm your enemy, cause I just let you in
Now turned into an enemy due to letting that person in.
Go from never spoke to making jokes who would've thought that
Transformation from not speaking to sharing jokes, unexpected.
Telling me everything while I would take it in never ignored that
Open communication, absorbing everything without neglecting.
We got so close now your so far I need a call back
Close connection, now distant, yearning for a callback.
Ever since you've been gone haven't felt anything more than
Emotional numbness since the person left.
Why did I open my mouth I just ruined everything
Regretting opening up, feeling responsible for ruining everything.
Why did I reveal how I felt should've known it's unsettling
Expressing emotions was unsettling in hindsight.
Why did I break down and open the weakness embedded in
Breaking down and revealing vulnerability.
Why did you snap me in two both sides of me are trembling
Feeling snapped in two, trembling on both sides.
You changed my life
The person changed the artist's life significantly.
More than you realise
Impact greater than realized by the other person.
You'll never see me again
A declaration of not being seen again by that person.
You'll always be in my head
The person will always be in the artist's thoughts.
Words out you just kept your distance, and that was instant
The person started keeping a distance, causing instant pain.
Put the pain on the page to paint you a picture of my prison
Expressing pain through creative means, painting a picture of confinement.
Place a barrier persistently pushing me away like an infant
Constantly pushed away like an infant, barriers set up.
Preaching for peace with a pen hope you accept but you just didn't
Seeking peace through writing, but not accepted by the other person.
Had to face you again and again but I just didn't exist
Repeatedly facing the person, but feeling nonexistent.
I still got lost in your eyes you ignored mine a hideous kid
Getting lost in the person's eyes, even though ignored.
It was a normal rejection but here is the serious twist
A rejection with a serious twist, as the person inspired the artist.
You are actually the reason I started doing any of this
The person is the reason the artist started their creative journey.
Nobody knows the real reason but I thought I would tell you
Sharing a personal truth about the artist's motivation.
I like to keep it truthful it's brutal for me more than a flesh wound
Preferring honesty, despite the emotional pain it brings.
My guts were spilling out when I open up in the bedroom
Opening up emotionally, feeling exposed and vulnerable.
Every time I do I always see it in added to the menu
Revealing emotions becomes a recurring pattern.
So I would like to thank you for giving me this blessing and curse
Thanking the person for the mixed blessing and curse.
I mean I was lost before you but now you know that I feel worse
Feeling worse after meeting the person but using music to cope.
I now make music to help other people in their search
Channeling experiences into music to help others.
Problems keep reaching there peak but you wasn't the first
Acknowledging problems reaching their peak, but the person wasn't the first.
You changed my life
The person had a profound impact on the artist's life.
More than you realise
The impact is greater than what the person realizes.
You'll never see me again
Reiterating the idea that the person won't be seen again.
You'll always be in my head
The person will always be remembered and present in the artist's thoughts.
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