For You
Embracing Redemption: A Journey of Self-Transformation in 'For You' by Dispositions
Lyrics
I'm not the man that you think I am
I don't match the perception you have of me.
But I am doing my best to become him
Despite that, I'm striving to transform into that ideal.
A broken past that I can't erase
I have a troubled history that I cannot eliminate.
In all this chaos, I found my place
Amidst disorder, I've found where I belong.
I like to think that I'm your saving grace
I like to believe I'm your rescuer.
But the truth is that you saved me
But in reality, you're the one who saved me.
I wont let you take
I won't allow you to snatch away my emotional core.
My heart from my chest
My heart remains crucial to me.
Cause its all that I have left
Because it's the only significant thing I possess.
I saw your face
I encountered you and felt revitalized.
And I took my first breath
Your presence felt like my first breath of life.
I'm doing everything I can
I'm exerting every effort to survive.
To keep my head above water
Struggling to cope with challenges.
I'm not the man you think I am
I'm not the person you perceive me to be.
But I'm doing my best to become him
However, I'm striving to embody that image.
We build our home on unstable ground
We've established our foundation on uncertain terrain.
A structure built out of promise
Our relationship is built on promises.
Bending and breaking at the slightest hint of stress
It's fragile and prone to crumbling under pressure.
I'm sick of keeping score
I'm tired of maintaining a tally of grievances.
And paying dues to that I can't afford
I'm paying debts I can't afford.
I'll never go back to where I've been
I refuse to revisit my past.
I swore I'd never be alone again
I promised myself not to be lonely again.
I'm doing everything I can
I'm putting in maximum effort to survive.
To keep my head above water
Struggling to stay afloat amidst challenges.
I'm not the man you think I am
I'm not the person you perceive me to be.
But I'm doing my best to become him
Yet, I'm endeavoring to embody that persona.
You're all thats keeping this growing hole, from
You're preventing this growing emptiness from consuming me.
Eating its way through my awful soul, and
Protecting my tormented soul from deterioration.
I never meant to build a broken home out of
I never intended to create a fractured home due to disputes and injuries.
Arguments and broken bones
Acknowledging the wreckage caused.
After all the things that i fucked up
Despite my numerous mistakes,
You're the only thing that I'm proud of
You're the sole aspect of my life I'm proud of.
You'll understand it when you're all grown up
When you mature, you'll comprehend this.
You made me finally feel like i was good enough
You made me feel worthy for the first time.
You've rebuilt me a thousand times
You've reconstructed me repeatedly.
Mended my frame and rebuilt my mind
Revived and reconstructed my psyche.
Lost in my thoughts before, but now I'm found
I was lost in thoughts before, but now I'm discovered.
The path you made, leading me out
Following the path you've laid out for me.
I'm doing everything I can
Striving with all my might to survive.
To keep my head above water
Fighting to keep my head above challenges.
Im not the man you think I am
I'm not the person you perceive me to be.
But I'm doing my best to become him
However, I'm relentlessly striving to embody that character.
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