Lyrics
Lost in the crowd again
Feeling disconnected and overwhelmed in a crowd.
I don’t know my friends
Uncertainty or unfamiliarity with one's social circle.
I’ve fallen out of place
Sense of not belonging, being out of sync.
See it on my face
Showcasing emotional struggles visibly.
But I just hold on
Perseverance despite difficulties.
And I act real strong
Pretending to be strong despite inner turmoil.
I don’t know how long
Uncertainty about the duration of emotional endurance.
Til I fall into nothing
Fear of a potential descent into emptiness.
Cause inside I’m nothing
Internal feeling of worthlessness or emptiness.
Push it down with a fake smile
Suppressing emotions with a forced smile.
My soul’s growing old
Sense of spiritual aging.
My body is cold
Physical and emotional numbness.
Illusion control
Being controlled by deceptive appearances.
Sometimes it’s hard to love myself
Struggling with self-love.
to love myself
Reiteration of the internal struggle to love oneself.
I listen to the voice in my head
Listening to negative self-talk.
Saying things that should never be said
Internal dialogue expressing harmful thoughts.
I even thought I was better off dead
Contemplation of one's own demise.
I even thought I was better off dead
Repetition of thoughts about self-worth.
I try to learn to forgive
Attempting to learn the art of forgiveness.
It’s not easy to live
Acknowledging the difficulty of life.
And we all make mistakes sometimes
Recognizing and accepting personal mistakes.
It’s like two steps forward, and three steps back Cause the mind can torture, when thoughts react
Struggling with progress and setbacks due to mental challenges.
I close my eyes
Seeking solace by shutting off external stimuli.
I wonder why
Questioning the reasons behind inner discomfort.
I never feel right inside
Persistent feelings of internal discord.
It’s hard to take
Difficulty in accepting internal struggles.
When I feel fake
Sense of being fake or inauthentic.
Push it down with a fake smile
Repression of emotions through a false smile.
My soul’s growing old
Reiteration of the aging and numbing of the soul.
My body is cold
Physical and emotional detachment.
Illusion control
Being controlled by deceptive appearances (repeated).
Sometimes it’s hard to love myself
Struggling with self-love (repeated).
to love myself
Reiteration of the internal struggle to love oneself (repeated).
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