Lyrics
Inch of ice
There's a thin layer of ice on the car's hood
On the sedan's hood
The person has dressed warmly, as expected
But you layered up
I've conditioned you to anticipate negative outcomes
Like I knew you would
I've prepared for the consequences
I've conditioned you
I've influenced your mindset to expect bad things
To expect the worst
To always prepare for the worst-case scenario
Made my bed
I've made my own situation and now accept it
And I dive into it
I immerse myself in it until I lose energy
Till I fizzle out
Until I fade away or burn out
And back in to it
Then I return to the same situation
Are you at the door?
Are you present or paying attention?
Are you listening?
Are you actively listening?
Well it was amicable
The separation seemed friendly, at least on the surface
Or so I tell myself
I convince myself it ended well
Now I am biting down
I'm suppressing the urge to cry out or express pain
To keep from crying out
Struggling to hold back emotions
And for the things that I said
I regret my words and wish for punishment
I hope I burn in hell
Wanting to face consequences for my actions
Take me to primrose hill
Symbolic request to be taken to a specific place for ashes to be scattered after death
And spread my ashes out
Wish to have ashes scattered at Primrose Hill
Leant a hand
I extended help, despite my own discomfort
And to my own chagrin
Regretting helping, feeling discomfort because of it
You gotta tell me twice
Requiring extra encouragement to engage
To lean into it
Need convincing to fully commit or participate
But I turn a cheek
I ignore an offense or insult
And you're used to it
You're accustomed to being ignored or mistreated
You take the brunt meant for somebody else
You endure the harm intended for someone else
Take off your cap call it a day
Take a break, call it a day, but still remain available
But you'll be there waiting in the corridor
Will be there when needed, despite appearances
To say
To express something important
That it was amicable
Similar to line 17: portraying a friendly end
Or so you tell yourself
Continuing to convince oneself it ended well
I see you biting down
Seeing the struggle to suppress emotions
To keep from crying out
Trying hard not to express pain or distress
God I'm the queen of this shit, making you feel like hell
Feeling in control of the situation, causing pain to the other person
Take me to primrose hill and spread my ashes out
Desire for ashes to be scattered at Primrose Hill, reaffirming control
Anywhere you go, I'll be there to dote
Promising to support or be present wherever the person goes
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