Honestly
Navigating Absurdity: Dizzy Spells' Reflection on Self-Worth and Trust
Lyrics
I keep on thinking about that time
I often reminisce about a specific moment in the past.
With my hand pressed hard to my side
I had a physical reaction, possibly stress or discomfort during that time.
Was it the end or is it okay
Uncertainty whether the mentioned time marked an ending or if it was acceptable.
In the moment didn't know my own name
During that moment, I was disoriented and didn't recognize my own identity.
I keep crawling to the ends of the earth
I persistently explore various places, metaphorically reaching the ends of the earth.
Tryna justify my own self-worth
Attempting to validate and prove my own value or significance.
While the cashier's flashing a smile
While engaging in this self-reflection, a cashier displays a smile that I feel undeserving of.
That I really don't think I deserve
Expressing doubt about deserving positive gestures, such as a smile.
And is this all of me?
Raising questions about the completeness of one's identity.
Is this all of me?
Pondering if the current state is the entirety of who I am.
If it's all I see
If the current circumstances are the only aspects of life I perceive.
Is it all of me?
Questioning if what I see represents the entirety of my existence.
Is this all of me?
Reflecting on the completeness of my identity.
Is this all of me?
Examining if the present is the entirety of who I am.
If it's all I see
Considering if the observed reality represents the totality of my existence.
Is it all of me?
Questioning if what is visible comprises the entirety of my identity.
All the lines that held me in place
Reflecting on the boundaries or rules that have constrained me.
They felt connected to April Base
Feeling a connection between these limitations and a place called April Base.
So I packed my heart and I headed away
Packing emotions and leaving for a new destination.
Singing with the chorus, "Bitte Orca, Bitte"
Singing along with a chorus, referencing "Bitte Orca, Bitte."
How can I remove my thoughts from the blur
Struggling to clear my mind from confusion or uncertainty.
When everything that's moving me's so absurd
Feeling perplexed by everything that influences or motivates me.
While the sun keeps sending me light
Despite feeling unworthy, receiving positive energy or insights, possibly from the sun.
That I really don't think I deserve
Doubting my deservingness of the received light or positivity.
And is this all of me?
Continuing to question the completeness of my identity.
Is this all of me?
Asking if the current state represents the entirety of who I am.
If it's all I see
If the visible reality is the only thing defining me.
Is it all of me?
Questioning if the perceived circumstances encompass the entirety of my existence.
Is this all of me?
Examining if the present is the totality of my identity.
Is this all of me?
Considering if the observed reality is the whole of who I am.
If it's all I see
If the visible circumstances comprise the entirety of my identity.
Is it all of me?
Questioning if what is seen represents the completeness of my existence.
Can I even go back to being the same
Reflecting on the possibility of returning to a previous state of being.
Whether I go or whether I stay
Contemplating the decision to either stay or leave the current situation.
Someone told me getting out the house is a must
Being advised that leaving the house is necessary for personal growth.
Is there really no one that I can trust?
Expressing a lack of trust in anyone, questioning the reliability of others.
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