When You're Around
Evasive Emotions: When You're Around
Lyrics
I've been home for days, but I refuse to call you
I've been at home for days, but I'm unwilling to contact you.
I've been home for days, I've been using my mind to spy on you
While at home, I've been mentally observing or checking up on you.
I hide and lock away the signs that I loved you
I conceal and lock away any signs that indicate I loved you.
I crashed my car and buried every key that would allow someone to get to you
I've experienced a serious setback (crashed my car) and taken steps to prevent anyone from reaching you.
And what I run away from is why I'm not away when you're around.
What I try to escape from is the reason I'm not absent when you're present.
When you see me standing back from the pictures in your bedroom leaning back
When you notice me distancing myself from pictures in your bedroom, I'm leaning back.
I'm surprised that I'm awake with my head floating off the ground
I'm surprised to find myself awake with my head figuratively floating off the ground.
And I've been pissed for days, beating my head against the wall
I've been angry for days, expressing frustration physically.
Listen to the soundtrack of your mind that goes, "I don't know, I just don't know"
Listening to the mental soundtrack of your thoughts, which includes uncertainty.
Get up and walk away, so happy that I feel so small
I get up and walk away, feeling happy despite feeling small.
I'll be alone forever if I could but I'd never tell, no I'd never tell
If given the choice, I would choose to be alone forever, but I keep this to myself.
And what I run away from is why I'm not away when you're around.
Reiterates the theme of running away from something, impacting the narrator's presence when you are around.
When you see me standing back from the pictures in your bedroom leaning back
Reiteration of the narrator's behavior when observing pictures in the bedroom.
I'm surprised that I'm awake with my head floating off the ground
Reaffirms the surprise of being awake with a detached feeling.
And when our war is through I'll drink to me cause I'm alive (when our war is through)
After our personal struggle or conflict is over, I'll celebrate my survival by drinking.
I'll drink to me cause I'm alive
Repetition of the intention to toast to one's own life.
And what I run away from is why I'm not away when you're around.
Reiteration of the theme of running away and its impact on the narrator's presence in your company.
When you see me standing back from the pictures in your bedroom leaning back
Repeats the behavior of distancing oneself when looking at pictures in the bedroom.
I'm surprised that I'm awake with my head floating off the ground
Reaffirms the surprise of being awake with a detached feeling.
(when you're around)
Repetition of the idea of being present when you're around.
With my head floating off the ground
Repeats the surprise of having one's head figuratively floating off the ground.
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