Lyrics
There are days now where I don't think of you
Days exist when thoughts don't involve you anymore.
Then word reaches me that you're not taking care of yourself
Received information indicates you're neglecting self-care.
And what am I supposed to do with that?
Uncertainty about how to respond to that news.
But I don't reach out because I don't know how to
Unable to reach out due to not knowing the appropriate approach.
And that's something I've got to live with
Living with the consequence of not reaching out.
Well I've burned my grace days, the people I have left
Exhausted the chances given for forgiveness or understanding; limited connections remain.
They either can't or simply won't relate
The remaining connections either cannot or choose not to empathize.
It's not like I'm trying all that hard to connect
Not putting significant effort into trying to connect.
Easily flustered as I pray to forget
Feeling easily distressed while hoping to forget.
Spending each New Year in regional airports
Traditionally spending the start of each year in airports, away from home.
Weighing the import of checking in on friends
Considering the importance of staying in touch with friends.
As I struggle to reckon with the realization
Struggling to come to terms with a sudden realization.
That I've got next to nothing to show for all these years
Feeling a lack of accomplishment despite the passing years.
Except a stutter, a shiver, my parents and my sisters
Only having a few personal traits and memories as achievements.
The faintest recollections of a town beside a river
Recollections of a vague memory linked to a town near a river.
Well I've burned my grace days
Having used up chances for forgiveness or understanding.
And that's something I've got to live with
Accepting the consequences of burning those chances.
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