Lyrics
Fuck am I out here tryna find in Santa Monica
Expressing confusion or frustration about being in Santa Monica
Maybe a model named Veronica
Possibly looking for a model named Veronica
Who reads books and makes playlist without no genres
Describing desired qualities in Veronica: reading books and creating diverse playlists
That could make my life a movie like a romcom with a splash of erotica
Wishing for a life that resembles a romantic comedy with a hint of erotica
Wishing we gave up on making our parents proud of us
Expressing a desire to give up on seeking approval from parents
We act like we don't care but the truth is so obvious
Acknowledging that pretending not to care is a facade
That's why we moved out here
Moving to Santa Monica to create a positive image for parents
So we could leave them with a happy mirage of us
Creating a happy illusion for parents to hold onto
To visualize every time that they have a thought of us
Wanting parents to think positively about the individual
And forget about how we skipped out on colleges
Reflecting on skipping college and its implications
Well maybe that was just me reminiscing on the beach
Personal reflection on the beach about the desire for a relationship or connection
Thinking I want a relationship but maybe I just want someone to relate with yea
Questioning if the desire is for a relationship or just someone to relate with
Waves so cold thought
Describing the coldness of the emotional waves
Swimming alone would save my soul but
Swimming alone as a means to save one's soul
They don't know what they don't know yea
Highlighting the lack of awareness in others
They don't know what they don't know yea
Repeating the theme of others' ignorance
Waves so cold thought
Reiterating the coldness of emotional waves
Swimming alone would save my soul but
Emphasizing the solitary nature of swimming for soul salvation
They don't know what they don't know yea
Repeating the theme of others' lack of awareness
They don't know what they don't know yea
Reiterating the idea that others are unaware
Fuck am I tryna do in Cali, fuck with Gavin Newsom?
Raising questions about the purpose of being in California and mentioning Gavin Newsom
Is the only reason I'm here is to maintain illusions
Suspecting that maintaining illusions is the primary reason for being there
And avoid solutions and stall conclusions
Avoiding solutions and delaying decisions to maintain the current state
And act like my life in Atlanta ain't all in ruins
Reflecting on life in Atlanta and its potential ruin
And I mean its not but it could've been
Acknowledging that life in Atlanta is not entirely ruined
Maybe if I didn't come out here then it would've been
Suggesting that not coming to Santa Monica could have led to a different outcome
Shit, anything to feel good about myself
Expressing a desire to feel good about oneself
Cause though I'm good by myself
Acknowledging being fine alone but still desiring companionship
Kinda wish I wasn't by myself yea
Expressing a desire for companionship
Waves so cold thought
Reiterating the coldness of emotional waves
Swimming alone would save my soul but
Swimming alone as a means to save one's soul, emphasizing solitude
They don't know what they don't know yea
Repeating the theme of others' lack of awareness
They don't know what they don't know yea
Reiterating the idea that others are unaware
Waves so cold thought
Reiterating the coldness of emotional waves
Swimming alone would save my soul but
Emphasizing the solitary nature of swimming for soul salvation
They don't know what they don't know yea
Repeating the theme of others' lack of awareness
They don't know what they don't know yea
Reiterating the idea that others are unaware
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