Lyrics
As I look around
Expressing observation and contemplation of the surroundings.
I would have thought by now
Expecting personal growth or change at this point in life.
That I would be closer
A desire to be emotionally closer or connected to something.
To feeling something somehow
Expressing a lack of emotional fulfillment or understanding.
Surely there's a reason I've been
Questioning the purpose or cause of waking up without clear goals.
Waking up from dreams without direction
Not having a clear path or purpose in dreams.
Could it be that I forgot
Suggesting a potential forgetting of a complete, fulfilled state.
What it was like to be whole
Reflecting on a time when one felt whole and complete.
Without this constant looming doubt?
Addressing persistent self-doubt affecting a sense of wholeness.
I would have thought by now
Reiterating the expectation of being emotionally closer.
That I would be closer
Re-emphasizing the desire for emotional proximity.
To feeling something, somehow
Continuing to seek a profound emotional experience.
Knowing it extends so far beyond
Acknowledging that the desired feeling transcends common perceptions.
Perceptions so vague to me
Describing perceptions as unclear or elusive.
It's like a colour I'm blind to
Using the metaphor of a color one is blind to symbolize an elusive experience.
That I thought I'd see by now
Expressing surprise at not experiencing the expected emotion.
But nothing I feel is real to me
Feeling a lack of authenticity in one's emotions.
Why should I care?
Raising the question of why emotional distance or failure matters.
There's failure ahead of me
Acknowledging the anticipation of failure in the future.
I know for sure
Expressing certainty about an upcoming challenge.
But we can't go backwards
Stating that it's impossible to reverse time or change the past.
Learn from your mistakes
Encouraging learning from past mistakes for personal growth.
You spend weeks in your cage
Describing a repetitive and unproductive cycle of confinement.
Just to walk in circles
Highlighting the circular nature of self-imposed limitations.
Waiting for a change
Waiting for a positive change within the confines of self-created restrictions.
Sometimes I feel that my conscience has healed
Feeling a sense of moral or emotional recovery, possibly falsely.
But I know that it's just imitation
Expressing skepticism about the authenticity of personal growth.
And I hope that I have limitations
Hoping for self-imposed limitations rather than boundless possibilities.
One day we'll see
Anticipating a future realization or revelation.
With the thoughts in my head
Being overwhelmed by conflicting thoughts.
And my head in my hands
Symbolizing internal turmoil and introspection.
To put it in words is a means to an end
Describing the difficulty of expressing complex emotions.
But now
Expressing willingness to believe in anything that reconnects.
I would believe in anything
A desire for a meaningful connection, open to any possibility.
That brings you back to me
Expressing a longing for someone's return.
I would have thought by now
Reiterating the expectation of emotional closeness.
That I would be closer
Continuing the search for a profound emotional experience.
To feeling something somehow
Seeking a genuine emotional connection.
Knowing it extends far beyond
Acknowledging the elusive nature of the desired emotion.
My sick lack of empathy
Highlighting a personal deficiency in empathy.
Like a colour I'm blind to
Using the metaphor of a color to represent an unperceived aspect.
That I thought I'd see by now
Expressing surprise at not experiencing the expected emotion.
But nothing I feel
Stating a lack of authenticity in current feelings.
Is real to me
Highlighting the disconnect between emotions and reality.
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