Late 20s
Navigating Insecurities in the Late Twenties: Eliza Bennett's Revelations
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I was meant to be someone
I had a sense of purpose or destiny.
Someone who's not like me
I was supposed to be different from my current self.
I was meant to be someone
Reiteration of the feeling of having a destined identity.
Who's confident at birthday parties
Expected to be confident in social situations like birthday parties.
I was ready to enjoy
Prepared to enjoy life.
Never feeling more secure
Feeling secure, but this changes later in life.
No one told me all I knew
Realization that the knowledge I had about life wasn't complete.
Bout life would be destroyed
What I knew about life was destroyed.
Replaced with paranoia
Replaced with excessive suspicion and fear.
And a voice I can't ignore
Dealing with an inner voice that cannot be ignored.
Baiting me to start from the ground floor
Feeling tempted or provoked to start over from the beginning.
Late twenties are doing bad things to me
The challenges of being in one's late twenties are negatively affecting me.
Digging up dirt and leaving me with debris
Uncovering past mistakes and leaving me with emotional wreckage.
No one told me the older the more anxiety
Realization that aging comes with increased anxiety.
Not much I know, know, know, know
Limited knowledge about life and its challenges.
In my late twenties
Expressing the challenges faced in one's late twenties.
I'm good with new people
Comfortable with meeting new people on the surface.
Not the ones who really know me
Not open to those who truly understand or know me.
If they get too close they'll see
Fear that revealing my insecurities could be harmful.
I'm insecure and that could hurt me
Admitting personal insecurities that could be damaging.
It's ugly but it's true
Acceptance of an unpleasant truth about oneself.
I didn't feel this way at twenty two
Contrast with feelings at the age of twenty-two.
Get too close and you may see that
Getting too close reveals a mismatch with societal expectations.
I don't fit the shoe
Not fitting into the expected roles or norms.
I'll make you think I do
Pretending to fit the expected roles.
All talk no follow through
All talk, no action or commitment.
I'd love to give myself a talking to
Expressing a desire to give oneself advice.
Late twenties are doing bad things to me
Reiterating the negative impact of being in one's late twenties.
Digging up dirt and leaving me with debris
Repeating the theme of unearthing past mistakes.
No one told me the older the more anxiety
Reaffirming the connection between aging and increased anxiety.
Not much I know, know, know, know
Restating limited knowledge about the challenges of life.
In my late twenties
Reflecting on the difficulties of being in one's late twenties.
Evaluating all these broken battles
Evaluating and reflecting on unresolved personal struggles.
That I thought that I'd already won
Discovering ongoing challenges that were thought to be resolved.
Once was fearless
Once fearless, now seeking safety and security.
Now I cling to safety
Admitting to holding onto lies created by oneself.
Knowing these are my own lies I've spun
Understanding the self-deception and its consequences.
Late twenties are doing bad things to me
Reiteration of the negative impact of being in one's late twenties.
Digging up dirt and leaving me with debris
Repeating the theme of unearthing past mistakes.
No one told me the older the more anxiety
Reaffirming the connection between aging and increased anxiety.
Not much I know, know, know, know
Restating limited knowledge about the challenges of life.
In my late twenties
Reflecting on the difficulties of being in one's late twenties.
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