Unrealistic
Unrealistic Longings: Navigating Pain and Loss Through Melancholic Reflections
Lyrics
I get attached to people I know I can't have for too long
I form emotional connections with people I know won't be in my life for an extended period.
I know it's self destructive and I Feel so dumb for feeling this way
I am aware that this attachment is harmful to myself, and I feel foolish for experiencing these emotions.
It feels wrong
The emotional attachment feels morally incorrect or misplaced.
I know it's unrealistic
I acknowledge that my expectations are not grounded in reality.
To think in five years he'd be here
I unrealistically imagine a future where the person is still present after five years.
He's leaving in June
The person is set to leave in June, contradicting the unrealistic expectation.
But what if I just ignore that he's gonna disappear
I contemplate ignoring the impending departure to avoid facing the reality of the person disappearing.
I wish that caring didn't have to hurt so much
I desire that caring for others didn't cause so much emotional pain.
I guess you can tell that you cared when you're left broken leaning on a crutch
Realizing care through the pain of loss, depicted as being left broken and relying on a crutch.
I wish loss didn't feel so much like a knife
I wish the experience of loss didn't feel as sharp and painful as a knife.
I guess losing's just a part of life
Acceptance that losing is an inevitable part of life.
Cancer's a curious thing
Reflection on the unpredictable nature of cancer and its impact on individuals.
Why can't our bodies just function correctly
Questioning why our bodies cannot function correctly without such afflictions.
My friend's mom is dying of it
Describing how a friend is dealing indirectly with the imminent loss of their mother to cancer.
And he's coping with the approaching loss indirectly
(Empty line, possibly indicating a pause or reflection in the lyrics)
I've had library books checked out for a year now
Admitting to a long-standing issue of not returning library books and facing potential consequences.
And I'm in debt
Being in debt due to the unresolved library book situation.
The records show they're lost
Official records indicate the books are lost, but there is a commitment to returning them eventually.
But I know I'll return them one day if I don't forget
The uncertainty of returning the books, emphasizing a potential lapse of memory.
I wish that caring didn't have to hurt so much
Reiteration of the desire for caring not to cause intense emotional pain.
I guess you can tell that you cared when you're left broken leaning on a crutch
Linking caring with the aftermath of brokenness and reliance on a metaphorical crutch.
I wish loss didn't feel so much like a knife
Expressing a wish that the experience of loss didn't feel as emotionally sharp as a knife.
I guess losing's just a part of life
Acceptance of the inevitability of loss as an integral part of life.
I don't know how to feel about this melancholy space
Uncertain feelings towards a melancholic mental space, possibly reflecting on a complex emotional state.
My brain's been living in
Recognition of residing within a deep melancholic mental state.
But it's deep within my skin
Describing the emotional state as ingrained within the person, akin to a tattoo gone wrong.
Like a tattoo gone awry
Comparing the emotional state to a poorly executed tattoo, causing continuous distress.
All it does is make me cry
The emotional state only induces sadness, drawing attention to the persistent negative impact.
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