Lyrics
You know what's way worse than feeling alone?
Expresses that feeling alone is not as bad as a specific situation that follows.
It's calling up all your friends,
Calling friends, realizing they're together, and you weren't aware of it.
They're together but you didn't know
Realization that friends are spending time together without including you.
You didn't know
Reinforcing the lack of knowledge about friends' gathering.
And now you're all alone
Resulting in the feeling of being isolated and alone.
Oh oh
Emphasizing the emotional state with "oh oh".
I live on the edge of a cliff
Metaphorically living in a precarious situation, feeling on the brink of danger.
One more nudge and I'll slip
Any slight push could lead to a significant negative consequence.
But you can't find the time
Friends not investing time to support or assist in difficult situations.
To pull me back
Failure of friends to offer needed support.
Fuck all my old friends I don't think they care
Expressing frustration and resentment towards old friends' lack of care.
If I'm bleeding (freaking) out I know they won't be there
Doubt in friends' availability during moments of distress.
So I'm holding my own hands
Taking charge of self-care and support instead of relying on others.
I pray for myself
Praying or hoping for personal strength and resilience.
Cuz I'm really over asking for help
Tired of repeatedly seeking assistance due to friends' unavailability.
You know what's way worse than holding it in?
Describing the difficulty of holding emotions inside.
Explaining why you're upset,
Explaining the cause of upset feelings to friends.
Then they go on to do it again
Friends repeating the behavior that caused distress.
And again
Emphasizing the repetitive nature of friends' actions.
I live on the edge of a cliff
Reiteration of living in a precarious situation.
One more nudge and I'll slip
Continuing vulnerability to potential negative consequences.
But you can't find the time
Friends' inability to provide necessary support when needed.
To pull me back
Failure to receive assistance despite the need for it.
Fuck all my old friends I don't think they care
Reiterating the lack of care from old friends.
If I'm bleeding (freaking) out I know they won't be there
Doubt in friends' presence during tough situations.
So I'm holding my own hands
Choosing self-reliance instead of depending on others.
I pray for myself
Hoping for personal strength and self-sufficiency.
Cuz I'm really over asking for help
Expressing exhaustion from repeatedly seeking help in vain.
Asking for help
Stressing the exhaustion of asking for assistance.
Don't tell me I can call you anytime I need
Addressing the promise of support being unavailable when needed.
When I finally reach out you're sorry you were still asleep
Friends being unavailable or unsupportive even after being called upon.
It was 3 pm
Specifically stating the time (3 pm) when the need for support arose.
I'm in my head again
Returning to internal struggles and overthinking.
You say you're busy no, you're just a shitty friend
Calling out friends for being neglectful and unreliable.
Fuck all my old friends I don't think they care
Reiterating frustration with old friends' lack of concern.
If I'm bleeding out I know they won't be there
Doubting friends' presence in times of significant distress.
So I'm holding my own hands
Choosing self-reliance and self-care over expecting external help.
I pray for myself
Seeking personal strength and self-sufficiency through prayer or hope.
Cuz I'm really over asking for help
Expressing fatigue from repeatedly seeking unfruitful help.
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