Because I Did
Unspoken Confessions: Ellie Turner's Heartfelt Journey Through Love
Lyrics
I never told you that I loved you
I never explicitly expressed my love for you
I'm always feeling everything too late
I consistently realize my emotions belatedly
But I don't think it would have changed us
Even if I had confessed, I doubt it would have altered our situation
I don't think I would have stayed
I believe I wouldn't have remained in the relationship regardless
Cause there was something in me
I possessed an indescribable inner conflict
Something I could never try to explain
An elusive feeling or aspect within me
When you were something perfect
You were an ideal, but I still chose to leave
And I left anyway
Despite your perfection, I made the decision to depart
I know it's been a long time
A considerable amount of time has passed
But I thought you could help me understand
I believed you could help me comprehend our situation
Remind me how we got here
Trigger memories of how our relationship evolved
From where it all began
Reflecting on the origins of our connection
We knew there might be trouble
Aware of potential issues from the beginning
We knew we'd probably never be the same
We knew we might not be able to maintain our original state
But when you came to me that Tuesday
A specific moment when the problems emerged
We swore it'd never be this way
We promised it wouldn't turn out like this
You were all that I wanted
You were my initial desire
But then I wanted more
However, my desires evolved, seeking more
So don't go thinking that I love you
Don't assume I still love you
I'm just saying this because I did
I'm expressing this because I once did love you
And sometimes I wish things were different
A wish for a different outcome crosses my mind at times
When I remember things you said
Recollections of things you said linger in my thoughts
Or when I think of how you'd hold me
Thoughts of how you held me surface
Always afraid to let me get too close
Afraid to let our connection become too intimate
Well honey you should know that
Informing you that your presence will always be a part of me
I'll always feel you in my bones
A lasting emotional connection, deeply ingrained
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