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I didn't know what would happen
I was unaware of the consequences that would unfold.
And now I'll always wonder
There will always be a lingering curiosity about the alternate outcome.
If I hadn't let you in
I contemplate the possibility of not allowing your entry that summer night.
That night in the summer
This refers to a specific night during the summer.
I was paralyzed
I felt paralyzed, likely emotionally or mentally.
I was compromised
My integrity or well-being was compromised.
And when I realized
Upon realization, a decision was made.
I chose to let it slide
I opted to overlook or tolerate the situation.
And I told you that you shouldn't worry
I reassured you not to be concerned.
But the truth is that I found you very scary
In reality, I found you genuinely frightening.
And you took all of my words, used them against me
You manipulated my words to use against me.
When I tried to talk about the way you wronged me
When attempting to discuss your wrongdoing, you hindered me.
You're the monster that still hides under my bed
You are the lingering fear that continues to haunt me.
You're the words that I thought but never said
You represent thoughts I never expressed verbally.
You're the creature I still hear inside my head
You are a metaphorical creature residing in my thoughts.
You're the shame that I will carry til I'm dead
The shame resulting from our interaction will persist until my death.
And I told you that you shouldn't worry
Reiteration of reassurance amid genuine fear.
But the truth is that I found you very scary
Despite assurances, your frightening nature remains true.
And you took all of my words used them against me
Repeated use of my words against me during communication.
When I tried to talk about the way you wronged me
Discussion about your wrongdoing is obstructed by your manipulation.
And I wish I hadn't let you off so easy
I regret making it easy for you and not confronting you more assertively.
But the truth is that I found you very scary
The fear I felt towards you was genuine.
And you took all of my words used them against me
Repeated use of my words against me continues to affect me.
When I tried to talk about the way you wronged me
Your wrongdoing is challenging to discuss due to your manipulation.
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