Afraid of Myself
Navigating Self-Doubt: Unraveling the Meaning Behind Eloise Kate's 'Afraid of Myself'
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Watching you scroll through instagram
Observing someone on Instagram
I see a face come up again
A familiar face appears again
Cements the image in my head that won't fade
The image is firmly embedded in the mind
I know I didn't know you then
Recognition that the speaker didn't know the person in the past
I'm trying so hard to forget
Struggling to forget
But part of me just won't believe that you've changed
Doubt about the person's claimed change
Sometimes I just wanna look at myself and say
Desire to confront personal feelings
This jealousy is driving me insane
Admission of jealousy causing distress
Maybe i'm just afraid of myself
Speculation about being fearful of one's own actions or emotions
Cause it's a mess in my head and then I can't ask you for help
Internal chaos preventing seeking help
Cause I might push you away
Fear of pushing others away due to internal struggles
This jealousy is driving me insane
Reiteration of jealousy-induced insanity
And it's hard to be calm
Difficulty maintaining calmness
When you take over me
External influence taking control
I blame everyone
Assigning blame to others
But in reality
Contrasting with actual reality
I'm just afraid of myself
Reiteration of fear related to oneself and memories
And my memories
Reflection on misleading memories
My mind miss-leads me all the time
Recognition of constant self-deception
So are these thoughts only in mine
Questioning the validity of thoughts
I know sometimes I make up my own problems
Admitting to creating personal problems
You think i'm going crazy
Perception of being perceived as mentally unstable
My mistakes make you hate me
Own mistakes leading to negative feelings from others
And I can't even solve them
Feeling incapable of resolving issues
Maybe i'm just afraid of myself
Continued speculation about self-fear
Cause it's a mess in my head and then I can't ask you for help
Reiteration of internal chaos hindering seeking help
Cause I might push you away
Concern about pushing others away
This jealousy is driving me insane
Jealousy causing mental distress
My minds illusions
Recognition of mental illusions affecting perception
Feeds the confusion
Confusion fueled by internal thoughts
Another day, another reckless attempt to escape
Repeated attempts to escape reality recklessly
I should get my priorities straight
Acknowledgment of the need for prioritization
Maybe i'm just afraid of myself
Reiteration of self-fear speculation
Cause it's a mess in my head and then I can't ask you for help
Internal chaos hindering seeking help
Cause I might push you away
Concern about pushing others away due to internal struggles
This jealousy is driving me insane
Jealousy-induced insanity
And it's hard to be calm
Difficulty maintaining calmness due to external influence
When you take over me
External influence taking control again
I blame everyone
Assigning blame to others despite recognizing reality
But in reality
Contrasting with actual reality again
I'm just afraid of myself
Reiteration of fear related to oneself and memories
And my memories
Reflection on misleading memories once more
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