Drowning From the Inside
Jealousy's Silent Roar: Unveiling the Inner Struggle
Lyrics
Never thought that I was special
Expressing a lack of self-perceived uniqueness or special qualities.
Although that's all that I was ever told
Acknowledging a consistent message of being special from external sources.
Threw myself into that big bad world
Taking a leap into the challenging aspects of life.
And prayed the playing would heal my aching soul
Hoping that engaging in life's activities will bring emotional healing.
Sung myself into a stupor
Immersing oneself in singing, perhaps as a coping mechanism.
Oh, I swear that I was caught up in a trance
Feeling captivated or entranced during the singing experience.
Tried to prove that I was just as good
Attempting to prove one's worth, seeking validation.
But you're the only one who got a second glance
Despite efforts, only one person (you) noticed and paid attention.
Oh, so it goes, they pass by
Observing others passing by without acknowledging.
And jealousy bubbles up
Experiencing jealousy as others pass by.
And drowns me from the inside
Jealousy becomes overwhelming, causing internal distress.
My inner beast is getting bigger
An inner turmoil or negativity is growing stronger.
And it hungers for the fire in your eyes
Desiring the passion or intensity seen in someone else's eyes.
You're the one who gets everything
You, the subject, seem to effortlessly obtain everything.
Oh how I want it all to be a lie
Expressing a wish for the apparent success to be untrue.
Oh, so it goes, they pass by
Reiteration of jealousy as others pass by.
And jealousy bubbles up
Jealousy intensifies, causing internal drowning.
And drowns me from the inside
Repeating the drowning sensation from jealousy.
I don't wanna see you thrive
Expressing a reluctance to witness your success.
The monster's clawing out my eyes
Metaphorically, an inner struggle with envy affecting perception.
And I can't see what's in front of me
Blindness to what's ahead due to inner turmoil.
That you're just what I wanna be
Acknowledging a desire to embody qualities observed in you.
Oh, I don't wanna see you thrive
Reiteration of not wanting to witness your success.
The monster's clawing out my eyes
Continued struggle with inner demons affecting perception.
And I can't see what's in front of me
Reiterating the challenge of seeing clearly due to internal struggles.
That you're just what I wanna be
Reaffirming a desire to embody qualities observed in you.
Yeah, you're just what I wanna be
Stating that you embody qualities that are aspired for.
Oh, so it goes, they pass by
Reiteration of jealousy as others pass by.
And jealousy bubbles up
Jealousy continues to intensify, causing internal distress.
And drowns me from the inside
Repeating the drowning sensation from jealousy.
Oh, so it goes, they pass by
Reiteration of jealousy as others pass by.
Oh
An ambiguous statement, possibly indicating resignation or acceptance.
And jealousy bubbles up
Jealousy persists and intensifies.
And drowns me from the inside
Repeating the drowning sensation from jealousy as a concluding statement.
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