The Curse
Embracing the Curse: Love, Fear, and the Weight of Loneliness
Lyrics
My apocalypse doesn't come with a rising tide
My world-ending event doesn’t happen suddenly but rather gradually when you're not with me.
It just settles down slowly when your hand's not in mine
The catastrophe occurs slowly once your presence or support diminishes.
And the only thing that made me feel safe is gone
The only source of security and comfort I had is now absent or lost.
Gone, gone
Emphasizing the absence of that safety or comfort - repeated for emphasis.
And I know it's in my head, and you say you love me still
I understand it's my perception, and you claim to love me despite this, but my dreams of losing you feel intensely real.
But when I dream you leave me, god, it feels so fucking real
Expressing the vividness and emotional impact of dreams where the fear of losing the loved one is overwhelming.
I don't want to wake up in case I find you gone
Prefer not to wake up because I fear discovering you’re no longer here.
You're gone, gone
Reiterating the fear of your absence - repeated for emphasis.
And what's the point of saving the world if the moon falls down?
Questioning the purpose of trying to save or protect the world if catastrophic events are inevitable.
What's the point of diving for a pearl just to lay it in the ground, in the ground?
Questioning the rationale of pursuing something valuable if it's eventually going to be wasted or lost.
Maybe that's morbid of me, but I think I have a curse, baby
Suggesting a belief in being cursed due to persistent negative feelings or circumstances.
You never lift it, you just make me less afraid
Your presence reduces my fear but doesn't remove the underlying curse or negativity.
But I'm still afraid
Despite your reassurance, I still experience fear and anxiety.
A crumpled set of bedsheets and an empty pack of smokes
Depiction of a messy bed and consumed cigarettes, symbolic of distress or inner turmoil.
Sometimes the air's so heavy I think I'm gonna choke
Feeling of suffocation or heaviness in the atmosphere, signifying emotional burden.
Even after years and years prepared me for being alone
Even though I've prepared for solitude, it feels different when you're aware of missing out on something.
I guess it's different when you know you're missing out
Recognizing the impact of your absence and hoping to overcome doubts by excelling.
And maybe if I'm good enough I'll get rid of the doubts
Striving to eliminate uncertainties that make me doubt my decisions and choices.
That tell me I fucked up and I don't know what's right for me
Feeling confused and uncertain about what's the right path or choice.
And what's the point of saving the world if the moon falls down?
Reiteration of the earlier question about the point of saving the world if inevitable disasters happen.
What's the point of diving for a pearl just to lay it in the ground, in the ground?
Reiteration of questioning the purpose of pursuing something valuable if it's going to be wasted or lost.
Maybe that's morbid of me, but I think I have a curse, baby
Repeating the belief in being cursed due to persistent negativity or unfortunate circumstances.
You never lift it, you just make me less afraid
Similar to line 13: Your presence reduces fear but doesn’t eliminate the perceived curse.
But I'm still afraid
Despite your efforts to alleviate fear, it still persists within me.
And what's the point of saving the world if the moon falls down?
Repeating the question of the purpose of saving the world in the face of inevitable disasters.
What's the point of diving for a pearl just to lay it in the ground, in the ground?
Repeating the questioning of pursuing something valuable if it's destined to be wasted or lost.
Maybe that's morbid of me, but I think I have a curse, baby
Reiteration of feeling cursed due to persistent negativity or unfortunate circumstances.
You never lift it, you just make me less afraid
Reiteration that your presence lessens fear but doesn’t eradicate the perceived curse.
But I'm still afraid
Despite your attempts to reduce fear, it still lingers within me.
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