i spend my weekends alone
Solitude Reflections: Ezra Wilder's Journey Through Regret and Change
Lyrics
When you told me I’m so sorry
Receiving an apology in a parking lot in LA that was more than just surprising
In that parking lot in LA it was way more than just shocking
Not holding blame for the issues that followed the apology
But I don’t blame you for all these issues
Acknowledging the possibility of making similar decisions after everything done
‘Cause after all I did I’d probably do the same and up and leave too
Expressing a desire to have known the present insights in the past
I wish I knew then what I know now
Wishing for the ability to communicate wisdom to a past self
Wish I could go back and tell myself what I’d found
Expressing remorse and a claim of personal transformation
Swear that I’m sorry and that I’ve changed
Rejecting the pretense of being okay and admitting to struggles
‘Cause I’m done faking I’m ok
Spending weekends alone, isolated in the room
I spend my weekends alone too much time in my room
Desiring to apologize for past mistreatment
Wishing I could apologize for the way I treated you
Acknowledging that the apology might not have any current impact
And I know it don’t help now but I thought you’d wanna know
Confirming that a wish for solitude has come true
That your wish came true ‘cause I’m still sleeping on my own
Continuing to experience the aftermath of a breakup, still sleeping alone
And I spend my weekends alone
Reiteration of spending weekends in isolation
You were never a one to waste time
Recognizing the ex-partner as someone who doesn't waste time
And honestly it hurt to hear you’re moving on and doing just fine
Feeling hurt to learn about the ex-partner's successful move on
Without me while I’m still empty
Expressing emptiness while trying to fill the void left by the ex-partner
Trying to fill the loneliness you left but I didn’t know then ‘cause you were with me
Realizing the loneliness only after the ex-partner is no longer present
I wish I knew then what I know now
Repeating the wish to have known current insights in the past
Wish I could go back and tell myself what I’d found
Reiterating the desire to communicate wisdom to a past self
Swear that I’m sorry and that I’ve changed
Reaffirming remorse and personal transformation
‘Cause I’m done faking I’m ok
Emphasizing the rejection of pretense and admission of struggles
I spend my weekends alone too much time in my room
Reiterating spending weekends alone, isolated in the room
Wishing I could apologize for the way I treated you
Expressing the desire to apologize for past mistreatment once again
And I know it don’t help now but I thought you’d wanna know
Acknowledging the limited help of the apology at this point
That your wish came true ‘cause I’m still sleeping on my own
Confirming the continuation of sleeping alone after the breakup
And I spend my weekends alone
Repeating the theme of spending weekends in isolation
I wish I knew then what I know now
Reiterating the wish for past knowledge
Wish I could go back and tell myself what I’d found
Repeating the desire to communicate wisdom to a past self
Swear that I’m sorry and that I’ve changed
Affirming remorse and personal transformation once again
‘Cause I’m done faking I’m ok
Emphasizing the rejection of pretense and admission of struggles once more
I spend my weekends alone too much time in my room
Reiterating spending weekends alone, isolated in the room
Wishing I could apologize for the way I treated you
Expressing the desire to apologize for past mistreatment once again
And I know it don’t help now but I thought you’d wanna know
Acknowledging the limited help of the apology at this point once again
That your wish came true ‘cause I’m still sleeping on my own
Confirming the continuation of sleeping alone after the breakup once again
And I spend my weekends alone
Repeating the theme of spending weekends in isolation once again
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