Lyrics
I noticed all the edges are glowing
I observe that all the difficult aspects are prominently evident
I fell through my bed into a fucked up place
I experienced a descent into a disturbing state or situation
Where my inner most doubts manifest to deceive me
My innermost fears and uncertainties take form to mislead me
And the worst i could do executes post haste
The worst actions I can take happen quickly
Its just me asking me, which one of us does this?
I question myself about the origin of this situation
No one answers, so nothings changed
No response is given, and nothing has changed
Stomach ripped out and with out a heart
Feeling emotionally devastated and without compassion
Here the fuck i am again
I find myself in this undesirable situation again
Oh i know, this is the darkest place in the farthest corner
Recognizing this as the darkest and most remote part of my mind
Of my mind, Although I hardly recognize it at all
Despite being familiar, it is hardly recognizable
Its like hell you see? Its the realest one you will ever find
Comparing it to hell, the most genuine form within one's mind
Exists nowhere else, Except right here inside your fucking mind
This hell exists only within the mind
The brain it bleeds for the death it needs
The mind suffers for the death it craves
When its possessed by a soul, that please believe
When possessed by a soul darker than coal
Is blacker than coal
Belief in hating everything and becoming loveless
And it believes, I hate all i see, I'm void of all love, I hate what I've become
Internal conflict where the self-destructive tendencies attack
The insides are now, attacking the shell
The internal struggles are affecting the outer self
Death from within is how its been
Death from within is the prevailing theme
Its so sad to see
Expressing sorrow at the situation
Its all cause of me, We're lost out at sea
The predicament is a consequence of one's own actions
You hid from the sun, Now you're stuck in and endless night
Having avoided positivity, now trapped in perpetual darkness
Lights up please, But there is a strange delay and nothing works
Request for lights to come up, but there's a delay and dysfunction
And I'm way off beat, So the harder I try only makes it worse
Struggling with rhythm, with efforts exacerbating the situation
Im stuck right here, Observing from the furthest row
Feeling stuck, observing from a distant and detached perspective
This shits fucked out, I thought it was a different show
Perception of reality being different from expectations
A blood red screen, Is all i see
Seeing everything in a disturbing red light
My eyes are closed, Am i awake?
Uncertainty about wakefulness with closed eyes
I just don't know
The situation is not as it appears
Its not what it seems, These are not even dreams
What's happening is not typical dream-like experiences
My demons are go
Personal demons are overpowering
Im losing my soul
Feeling the loss of one's own soul
My personal cloud has got me all drowned
An overwhelming feeling, drowning in personal struggles
So much for me, I just need so bad to go
Desire to escape from the current state
Back where i came, to start it again
Yearning to return to the starting point
Away from this jail, Away from this hell
Seeking liberation from the current confinement and misery
Fucked in the head so i can't go to bed
Feeling mentally disturbed, unable to find peace in sleep
Between the fucking sheets with my problems instead
Unable to escape problems even in sleep
I'd say overall, this feels real dead
Overall, the situation feels emotionally dead
None of my time ever feels well spent
No time feels well-spent, a sense of emptiness
Exhausted to the core but as soon as i sleep
Physically exhausted but haunted by disturbing thoughts during sleep
The thoughts in my head really give me the creeps
Nightmares intensify when trying to rest
There is nothing i can do or so it seems
Feeling helpless, with no apparent solution
All this i explain is the song of screams
Explanation of the song's content as a scream of despair
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