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Unveiling Pain: Faith Freeman's Emotional Journey Through Broken Walls
Lyrics
I built these walls around me
I have created emotional barriers around myself.
Cause I thought they were bullet proof
I believed these defenses would protect me from emotional pain.
But I don't think I'm finding safety
However, I don't feel secure because memories of you linger.
Cause I'm stuck with memories of you
I'm haunted by memories of our past.
On replay
These memories repeatedly play in my mind.
Breaking down
I'm emotionally breaking down.
Losing my mind
Experiencing mental distress.
3 to 4 times one day
This distress occurs frequently throughout the day.
Runnin in circles
I feel stuck in a repetitive cycle.
Tryna find answers to make it go away
Attempting to find solutions to alleviate the pain.
And I still don't understand why I gotta be the one to carry this weight
I question why I must bear the burden of this emotional weight.
Carry this weight
Continuing to carry the emotional burden.
And maybe one day this won't hurt like it does
Hoping that someday the pain will diminish.
But right now I feel stuck and I'm losing patience
Currently feeling stuck and impatient.
Cause forgive
Struggling with forgiveness.
I couldn't do it yet
I haven't been able to forgive yet.
And closure
Desiring closure but recognizing it may never come.
That's one thing I'll never get
Accepting the lack of closure.
Okay
Expressing readiness to discuss the situation.
I've been I've been thinking about it
Reflecting on the situation and contemplating.
And I've been tryna work on staying grounded
Attempting to stay grounded amidst the emotional turmoil.
Spending hours wondering how I
Wondering how I spent so much time giving you control over my life.
Spent so many years giving you my power
Realizing the impact of giving away personal power for years.
Now I'm at the bottom
Feeling at the lowest point.
Everybody watching
Others are observing my struggles.
Do I got the strength to stay above all the waters
Questioning if I have the strength to overcome challenges.
I don't know
Uncertain about my capabilities.
And I wasted so much time
Regretting the time spent pursuing you.
Chasing you when I should fallback
Realizing the need to step back.
But it's only cause of you
Acknowledging that my actions were influenced by you.
That I had to learn to fight back
Learning to defend myself because of the challenges you presented.
Ain't that some shit
Expressing frustration at the situation.
Yeah your little secret of all that you did
Revealing a secret about your actions.
I'm ready to air out that bitch
Expressing a readiness to confront the truth.
And I am not the one to keep quite for your pride
Refusing to stay silent for the sake of your pride.
Yeah you burned all those bridges
Acknowledging the damage to the relationship.
Had me believing that I deserved it
Believing false narratives about deserving mistreatment.
Took advantage of all i did
Recognizing the exploitation of my efforts.
To switch up
Experiencing a betrayal and a change in behavior.
You so damn selfish
Labeling the other person as selfish.
Shit's impressive
Admiring the manipulative tactics used.
And there's nothing you can do to ease this pain
Expressing the depth of emotional pain.
I'm surprised you got the nerve to show your face
Surprised that the other person has the audacity to face me.
To say my name
Acknowledging the confrontation and mentioning my name.
But at least it's nice to know
Finding solace in the fact that I am now in control.
Now i'm the one on top
Asserting my newfound position of strength.
And our roles have changed
Highlighting the reversal of roles in the relationship.
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