Pressure To Self Destruct
Escaping Shadows: Battling Demons and Broken Dreams
Lyrics
I gotta fucking leave this town
I feel the need to leave this town
Things will get better when I'm not around
Expecting improvement when I'm no longer present
I don't mean to be so numb but I'm drowning
Expressing emotional numbness while drowning
It's better if I just say goodbye for now
Believing it's better to say goodbye temporarily
I'm use to living my life with my head in the clouds
Accustomed to living with a dreamy, optimistic mindset
Lately all I do is bring everyone around me down
Recent negative impact on others, feeling down
Now I avoid all the pills prescribed to me
Avoiding prescribed pills due to negative effects
Because my body is a shell
Describing the body as a hollow container
And my heart is empty
Feeling emotionally empty
Those images play on the back of my eyelids
Recalling haunting mental images during introspection
While your voice calls out through the violence
Hearing a voice amidst inner turmoil
Telling me my love you need to grow up
Receiving advice to mature from a significant other
The world is moving on without you
Acknowledging the world moving forward without personal progress
I'm moving on without you
Accepting and adapting to life changes
Now I miss the nights when you'd lay in bed
Nostalgia for nights with intimate conversations
And whisper until I fell asleep
Cherishing whispered words until falling asleep
Too bad I was barely listening
Regret for not fully paying attention during those moments
I was barely listening
Reiterating the lack of attentive listening
I spent the last few months living like a ghost
Recent period of feeling unnoticed and detached
No one seems to notice that I'm missing
Observing a disconnection from others
My body still comes around but my soul is elsewhere
Physical presence remains, but emotionally absent
I'm plagued by a mind that won't let it go
Battling persistent thoughts and questions
Chasing after answers that Nobody knows
Seeking answers in vain
The innocence has left my eyes and it's starting to show
Loss of innocence reflected in appearance and demeanor
Don't tell me time heals everything
Rejecting the idea that time heals all wounds
Cause two years later
Two years later, still feeling emotionally distant and angry
I'm just as numb and angry
Expressing persistent emotional state
Those images play on the back of my eyelids
Recurrence of haunting mental images
While your voice calls out through the violence
Hearing the same voice amid inner conflict
Telling me my love you need to grow up
Receiving repeated advice to mature
The world is moving on without you
Acknowledging the world's progression without personal growth
I'm moving on without you
Acceptance and adaptation to life's changes
Now I miss the nights when you'd lay in bed
Nostalgia for nights with intimate conversations
And whisper until I fell asleep
Cherishing whispered words until falling asleep
Too bad I was barely listening
Regret for not fully paying attention during those moments
I was barely listening
Reiterating the lack of attentive listening
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