Lyrics
Thoughts spawn as quick as they waste.
Quick generation of thoughts contrasted with their rapid dissipation.
Forge disoriented futures.
Creating confusing and uncertain future scenarios.
Cutting in and out, floating in and out.
Experiencing inconsistency and instability, both mentally and emotionally.
I'm about to chance a great deal of my past.
Contemplating a significant change in personal history.
I'm about to chance a great deal of my future.
Considering a major alteration in one's future.
Why does this decision turn its back on me?
Questioning why a particular decision seems to betray the speaker.
I'm not the only one risking it all.
Acknowledging that others also take risks in their lives.
This must be some sick joke that I played on myself.
Reflecting on the possibility that the situation is a self-inflicted, ironic joke.
This must be some sick self that I joked on my play.
Playing with the idea of a distorted self, possibly in a metaphorical sense.
This is where the ghosts play.
Referring to a place where unresolved issues or memories linger.
This is where the ghosts play dead.
Emphasizing the stagnation or suppression of unresolved matters.
This is where the ghosts play dead wrong.
Suggesting that the unresolved issues have negative consequences.
Patience runs thinner and thinner.
Expressing impatience as tolerance diminishes.
When will I realize I'm floating in space
Questioning awareness of being disconnected and adrift in space.
Unattached from your life?
Feeling detached from a significant aspect of life.
Did I belong there in the first place?
Ruminating on whether the speaker belonged there initially.
Distance seems to go on forever.
Perceiving distance as an endless expanse.
When will I realize I'm floating in space
Reiterating the sense of being disconnected and floating in space.
Unattached from your life?
Repeating the feeling of detachment from a significant life element.
How long will this go on?
Pondering the duration of this detached state.
Please cleanse my soul.
Seeking purification for the soul.
Cleanse my corrupt soul.
Expressing a desire to cleanse a corrupted soul.
I threw it all away so I could learn what it's like
Regretting a past choice for the sake of learning.
To waste all of our time.
Realizing the consequence of wasting time.
Did time even exist?
Questioning the existence and relevance of time.
For all its worth,
Acknowledging a substantial experience, despite its value.
We had a great run at it
Highlighting the positive aspects of a shared journey.
And I found out a lot about myself.
Gaining self-awareness through the journey.
I found out a lot about living.
Learning valuable lessons about life.
I will never forget every time.
Committing to remember every instance in the relationship.
I will never forget every time that I made you smile.
Emphasizing the significance of making the other person smile.
I will never forget every time that I made you cry.
Acknowledging moments that caused the other person pain.
I'm so sorry. For this,
Expressing remorse and a commitment to repent for mistakes.
I will repent. Next time,
Committing to sacrifice in the future as a form of redemption.
I'll sacrifice. I was not the right one.
Recognizing a failure to be the right person in the past.
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