Alone at the Party
Navigating Heartbreak: Future Teens' Emotional Journey Unveiled
Lyrics
I'm filling in my calendar
I'm organizing my schedule
Every hour with stuff to do
Filling each hour with activities
If I can't stop to think of it
Avoiding reflection to prevent missing you
I won't have time for missing you
Keeping busy to escape the emotions
I haven't called up my family
Not reaching out to family
I'm avoiding my oldest friends
Avoiding old friends
Maybe I'll just make some new ones
Considering making new friends to mask loneliness
So I don't have to pretend i'm happy alone at the party again
Acting happy to avoid pretending at the party
I don't know what I'm supposed to do
Feeling lost about what to do
I can't hate you
Unable to hate despite difficulties
And trust me, I've tried to
Attempting to hate without success
How long is this supposed to take?
Questioning the duration of emotional healing
Cause I love you and I need that to change
Desiring a change in feelings because of love
Maybe it was destructive
Admitting potential destructiveness of pursuing a crush
To go catch a crush
Chasing a crush might have negative consequences
I built this up into something
Creating false expectations about a relationship
That it never was
Realizing the created expectations were unrealistic
But if my memory serves me
Recalling events better than valuing oneself
Like my self worth rarely does
Self-worth is often underestimated
This started just like the ending
Relationship starting and ending similarly
Trying to play it cool enough and leaving with an awkward hug
Attempting to be casual but leaving awkwardly
I don't know what I'm supposed to do
Feeling lost about what to do (repeated)
I can't hate you
Unable to hate despite difficulties (repeated)
And trust me, I've tried to
Attempting to hate without success (repeated)
How long is this supposed to take?
Questioning the duration of emotional healing (repeated)
Cause I love you and I need that to change
Desiring a change in feelings because of love (repeated)
We joked that this would be easier
Joking about the ease of moving on
For whoever cared less
Thinking detachment makes it easier
I guess that makes me the loser
Feeling like the loser in the situation
But I'm trying my best
Putting effort into coping
I don't know what I'm supposed to do
Feeling lost about what to do (repeated)
I can't hate you
Unable to hate despite difficulties (repeated)
And trust me, I've tried to
Attempting to hate without success (repeated)
How long is this supposed to take?
Questioning the duration of emotional healing (repeated)
Cause I love you I don't want that to change
Desiring the persistence of love (repeated)
I need it to change
Expressing the necessity of change in love
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