Lyrics
I spent a couple months outta action costed my sanity
Experienced a period of inactivity that negatively affected mental health.
Lost pop pop then my passion for rapping life couldn't grasp it
Lost a significant person (pop pop) and the passion for rapping due to life's challenges.
Balled my problems up like they was a napkin played tennis racket
Handled problems casually, like using a napkin, and played tennis with life's difficulties.
Couldn't fathom the water deepened no paddle
Felt overwhelmed in deep waters without a paddle.
I'm fighting a different battle there's evil with the shadow
Fighting a personal battle against evil represented by shadows.
Only me myself and I know that I never had em, matter fact
Acknowledging the absence of genuine support.
It wasn't straw that broke the camels back or killed the matador
Life's challenges were not the typical straws but impactful events.
Psychic ward, crazy motherfucker that you can't ignore
Describing oneself as a crazy, unforgettable individual.
Ego pushed my back against the wall, may of tripped but never fall
Ego pushed against the wall, faced challenges but never gave up.
Autumn Audemars I don't need diamonds dancing to know I'm a star
Self-confidence not dependent on material possessions.
Not from Earth and out of touch reality seems so bizarre
Feeling disconnected from reality.
Like that time I took 3 bars cause my ex chick had went nexus cause the sex was getting Raw
Recounting a challenging time involving a relationship and substance use.
Monday nights Jim Ross sick vlogs shout out Luke Vaughn
Referencing personal experiences and acknowledging influences.
Getting my bread like crouton, stacking chips put the crew on
Building financial stability and supporting others.
Mustard I need that poupon oodles noodles and Udon
Expressing a desire for luxury items and specific foods.
Yeah and around Christmas time call me Rudolph
Associating with Rudolph around Christmas time.
December 26 what a gift just had my 20th
Celebrating a significant birthday and reflecting on the challenges faced.
Month prior to this I lost my senses Covid did me in
Experiencing the impact of COVID-19 on physical and mental health.
Everything at once beat me to shit I was struggling
Facing multiple challenges simultaneously, leading to personal struggle.
Never thought I'd see myself this low I felt the ugliest
Reaching a low point and feeling unattractive.
High up late at night many times thought about me dying
Contemplating life late at night but not suicidal.
Still not suicidal but the song resides and I aint lying
Expressing honesty about personal struggles in a song.
Fully been compliant predictions but aint no Myan
Compliant with life's challenges, referencing Mayan predictions.
2012 all over it's going postal and Bezos buying
Drawing parallels with the past (2012) and contemporary events (Bezos buying).
Prime to your doorstep over night
Reference to fast and convenient delivery services.
Douglas discount that's a Fisher Price
Mention of a discounted price and consumerism.
Wave your Pickett signs this ain't quitting time realest multiply
Encouraging perseverance in challenging times.
But sadly this generation is full of dandelions
Critiquing the current generation for being delicate.
And I got my heart set on the finish line
Determined to reach personal goals.
Me myself and I talk about a world colliding its catastrophic inner demons resorting to violence
Reflecting on inner conflicts and potential resorting to violence.
Big bodies, Godzilla, Skull Island
Using metaphors (big bodies, Godzilla) to describe personal challenges.
2 monsters, 1 human, true psychic
Highlighting the internal struggle with ego and psychic elements.
Thought I was really the kid
Questioning self-perception and identity.
Ego the size of a blimp
Describing an inflated ego.
Sophomore Junior year studio sessions like it was a gym
Recalling productive studio sessions during school years.
9 days perfection sonnet then hit after hit after hit
Celebrating creative success with a series of hits.
Was calm before the aftermath had left an abyss
Anticipating calm before the aftermath, referencing an abyss.
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