When I Felt Giving
Emotions Lost, Giving Felt
Lyrics
Looking down at what I've lost
Reflecting on what has been lost
And what I'm not receiving
Feeling a lack of reciprocation or acknowledgment
The sun shines down upon
The positivity of life shines on
All I've ever given
All the efforts made in life
But I can't even find an ounce
Unable to find anything remaining
Left to remember
Nothing left to recall past generosity
What it was I felt when I felt giving
Uncertainty about the feeling of generosity experienced previously
I tried to give you something
Attempting to offer something
But I took it instead
Instead of giving, taking something for oneself
Something I didn't want or
Unwanted possession taken without realization
Even know that I had
Unawareness of possessing something
And I guess you'll find it easy enough
It may be easy for someone else to feel defeated
To feel you've lost the fight
Feeling of defeat despite being a source of affection
When you've always been a sinkhole for love
Always being a recipient of love but unable to retain it
And a vacuum for light
Attracting positivity but unable to hold onto it
I have watched you
Observing someone's avoidance of a particular direction
Face in every direction but this way
Seeing someone avoiding a certain path
And I have watched your flame burn
Watching someone burn bridges, except the crucial one
Every bridge but
Avoiding an essential path that leads to connection
The one that leads right here
Feeling unnoticed despite being present
Like a bat in a tree camouflaged like a leaf
Comparing oneself to an unnoticed entity
From the floor to the stage I was the only one watching
Being the only observer in a situation
Do a dance in the passenger seat
Feeling self-hatred for every action or movement
Hate yourself for every movement of your body
Self-loathing for bodily movements and actions
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