Disposable
Disposable: The Weight of Miscommunication
Lyrics
You hit reset again
You restarted something
I blame myself, I think it's what I said
I hold myself responsible, believing my words contributed
That pushed you to the edge
My words may have driven you to a breaking point
I pushed you to the edge
I specifically pushed you to an extreme
How could a poet possibly make such mistakes with words as these
Expressing the difficulty of a poet avoiding hurtful words
I wanted to make you believe you're not the one that hurt me
I aimed to convince you that you're not the cause of my pain
It wasn't you
Clarifying that the blame doesn't lie with you
It could never be you, at least purposefully
Ensuring it's not your fault, at least not intentionally
I'll start crying tonight
Expressing the intention to cry tonight
You'll understand but you're never right
You'll comprehend, but you're consistently incorrect
To blame someone else
Attributing blame to others for my emotional state
For the way that I felt
Putting responsibility on external factors for my feelings
I always disappoint myself
Acknowledging a pattern of self-disappointment
Thinking maybe you'll treat me like someone else
Hoping for different treatment from you
I think I'm running out of breath
Suggesting a feeling of suffocation or desperation
The things I say and what you said, they don't make sense
Noting a lack of coherence between our words
You don't make sense, at least to me
You, and your actions, are confusing to me
So help me understand
Pleading for clarification and understanding
Tell me all about how she hurt you
Requesting details about how someone else hurt you
Will you confide in me
Asking for your trust and emotional sharing
Or let me hold you while you think of her some more
Offering support and comfort while you think of her
Will hers be the last name that you call for
Questioning if her name will be the last you call
Hold me once before you go
Asking for a comforting moment before you leave
I promise I'll be fine
Assuring that I'll be okay after you go
But I just wanted you to know
Expressing a desire for you to know something important
I didn't mean to be the thing making you leave
Apologizing for unintentionally driving you away
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