What Will Become of Me
Journey Through Anxious Seasons
Lyrics
Spring is sneaking up on me again
Spring's arrival is catching me by surprise.
But I tried to see it coming
Despite my efforts, I couldn't anticipate it.
Looking back at fall
Reflecting on the past season, fall.
A fallen city on a hill
Describing a fallen city on a hill, possibly a metaphor for challenges or setbacks.
Fear is not a crime
Fear is acknowledged but emphasized as not unforgivable.
That can't be forgiven
Despite forgiveness, fear still has a imprisoning effect.
But it imprisons me
The impact of fear on the speaker's freedom.
Every time I turn back from the world
Turning away from the world results in imprisonment.
Could a pillar of salt
Reference to the biblical story of Lot's wife turning into a pillar of salt; contemplating the consequences of looking back.
Ever heal the world
Exploring if a symbolic pillar of salt could heal the world.
How did I get so anxious
The speaker is overwhelmed by anxiety.
That I can't sleep
Anxiety has reached a point where sleep is elusive.
Oh mother comfort me
The speaker seeks comfort from their mother.
Everything is changing
Expressing the difficulty in understanding the ongoing changes.
And I can't see
The speaker is unable to foresee the future.
What will become of me
Pondering the uncertain fate of the speaker.
What will become of me
Reiterating the concern about the speaker's future.
Idiotic tap of dripping rain
Describing the sound of rain outside as idiotic taps.
Outside my window
The speaker observes raindrops outside the window.
Helicopter pushing wind and
A helicopter's presence is causing a physical reaction in the speaker.
Thudding in my chest
The helicopter induces a thudding sensation in the speaker's chest.
Praying for a silent revelation
Hoping for a moment of revelation without disturbances.
Speaking peace into
Speaking words of peace amid internal chaos.
The incoherent rage inside my head
Describing the chaotic rage within the speaker's mind.
Why do I get so angry
The speaker questions the intensity of their anger.
Bout little things
Expressing frustration about getting angry over trivial matters.
Oh father comfort me
The speaker seeks comfort from their father.
Everything is changing
Highlighting the overwhelming nature of ongoing changes.
And I can't see
The speaker is still unable to see the future clearly.
What will become of me
Reiterating concern about the uncertain fate of the speaker.
What will become of me
Continued worry about what lies ahead for the speaker.
Oh I long to be
The speaker expresses a desire for a more meaningful existence.
Something more than
Longing to be more than just tired and grieved.
Tired and grieved
Continuation of the desire for a deeper purpose.
Oh I long to believe
Expressing a yearning to believe in the significance of life.
That it matters
Desire for life to have meaning and impact.
That it matters
Repetition emphasizing the importance of life.
That it matters
Reiteration of the speaker's longing for life to matter.
That it matters
Final emphasis on the importance of life's significance.
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