HMN
Navigating Shadows: Unveiling Life's Depths in Grant Howard's HMN
Lyrics
I been drinkin' way too much
I've been consuming excessive amounts of alcohol.
The devil wanna take a clutch
The devil is tempting or challenging me.
Just tell him he can hold my nuts
I defiantly reject the devil's influence.
Because I know I ain't gon' go that easy
I won't succumb easily to challenges or difficulties.
And it feels eerie
There's a strange or unsettling feeling.
Because I'm okay
Despite challenges, I am emotionally stable.
For the long run
I am prepared for the long term.
And I spent four days
I've spent an extended period, possibly in contemplation.
All up in my head, wind up in my bed
I've been deep in thought and ended up in bed without remembering the previous night.
With no recollection of what happened last night
Memory loss from the previous night's events.
Down on my luck, I've been right here before
I've faced challenges similar to my current situation.
I went searching in myself and found out that
I explored my inner self and discovered a need for more.
I needed more
I need a deeper understanding or purpose.
And I know everything happens for a reason
Belief that everything happens for a reason.
But I need a meaning to let go of my freedom
Seeking meaning to release myself from constraints.
And I don't wanna think about the shit I should've had
Avoiding regrets and reflecting on missed opportunities.
Nothing's really good but, nothing's really bad
No extreme highs or lows in life.
I ain't tryna hold my breathe
Not willing to hold my breath or be anxious.
If I don't really know what's next
Uncertainty about the future, unwilling to speculate.
I'm paranoid these pills been pressed
Paranoia about the authenticity of pills consumed.
But if I die I go with all my friends
If I die, I want to be with my friends.
Well what's the meaning of money, happiness, evil?
Pondering the meaning of money, happiness, and evil.
I've lost it all and I need a sequel
Having lost everything, seeking a new beginning.
I need to stop then I hit a breakthrough
Realizing the need to stop a destructive pattern.
I think too much but I'm just disgraceful
Overthinking, feeling a sense of shame.
Get lost in a place that doesn't exist
Getting lost in thoughts or a mental state that isn't real.
It's my time to go but they all insist
Feeling that it's my time to leave, despite others' insistence.
That I play the part then I can't resist
Playing a role, unable to resist the pressure.
So I lose it all then I reminisce
Losing everything and reminiscing about the past.
What does that mean?
Questioning the meaning of a particular experience.
She turned 18 and had some big dreams to hit a big scene
A young woman turning 18 with ambitious dreams.
Then she turned 25
Transitioning to the age of 25 with introspection.
Had that look up in her eyes
Analyze her life choices and direction.
Gazing from the left to right, what she doing with her life?
Questioning the purpose and direction of her life.
Down on my luck, I've been right here before
Reiteration of facing challenges in life.
I went searching in myself and found out that
Similar to line 12, realizing the need for more in life.
I needed more
Reiterating the need for deeper meaning and understanding.
And I know everything happens for a reason
Reaffirming the belief that everything happens for a reason.
But I need a meaning to let go of my freedom
Seeking meaning as a way to release oneself from constraints.
And I don't wanna think about the shit I should've had
Avoiding dwelling on missed opportunities or regrets.
Nothing's really good but, nothing's really bad
Emphasizing the neutrality of life, neither entirely good nor bad.
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