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Wa Gwan This is something like an update
Introduction, setting the stage for an update.
It's been 1000 odd days still i'm up late
Reflecting on a significant period of time spent awake.
Wouldn't say it ever get's easy but I must say
Acknowledging the ongoing challenges, mixed with recent moments of joy.
A few more laughs of recent but it's love hate
Expressing a complex relationship with life, a mix of love and hate.
cos on the one hand i'm thankful that I'm moving forward
Gratitude for progress but conflicted emotions.
one other i feel guilty last year I bought a coffin and a house within a few months
Contrasting emotions related to buying a house and facing loss.
It's like i get a little joy and then i lose some
Experiencing joy followed by setbacks.
Never thought I'd own a house before 30
Surprised at owning a house early but lamenting the absence of a loved one.
but never thought you wouldn't be around this early
Reflecting on the unexpected absence of someone close.
I was happy on the day i picked up the keys
Initial happiness when getting house keys but overshadowed by mixed feelings.
Still got reluctant peace everythings bittersweet
Overall feeling of life being bittersweet.
Still got most of the gifts you've given me
Keeping sentimental gifts, feeling connected to the absent person.
It's like they're keeping you close, never ghost
Believing the memories keep the person's presence alive.
reminders all over the home but better know
Being surrounded by reminders of the absent loved one.
But what I'd give for you to pick up the phone
Expressing a longing for communication with the absent person.
It's like you're everywhere and nowhere
Sensing the presence everywhere but not physically.
It's like you're everywhere and nowhere
Repetition emphasizing the omnipresence and absence of the loved one.
It's like you're everywhere and nowhere
-Feeling everything and nothing
Feeling a range of emotions, yet a sense of nothingness.
I'm just Praying and i'm trusting
Finding solace in prayer and trust.
Everywhere and nowhere
Reiteration of omnipresence and absence.
God I can't lie our relationship was strained last year
Reflecting on a strained relationship with God in the past year.
Couldn't handle the pain last year
Recalling emotional pain, loss of faith, and a dark period.
I thought the faith that I had was all in vain last year
-I thought the sun would never shine after the rain last year
-But I just stepped outside it's kinda sunny with a westerly wind
Noticing positive changes akin to blessings.
and I guess that's like the blessings you bring
-There's good times hard times and we wrestle within
Accepting the challenges as part of life's struggles.
So now it's sweet chin music when i step in the ring
-It's a miracle I'm standing today
Acknowledging personal strength and attributing it to grace.
and I wouldn't have made it through if it wasn't for grace
-I know even if the darkest of days you never left me alone
Believing in God's constant presence during difficult times.
I remember I was calling your name
-I wasn't getting an answer and I was getting frustrated
Describing a moment of frustration turning into reassurance through reading the Bible.
and so i Opened the Bible I starting turning the pages
-and i read You're keeping watch over the good and the evil
-I can't see you but you see all your people
-It's like your everywhere and nowhere
Reiterating the omnipresence and unseen protection of God.
I don't know what the future holds
Uncertain about the future but confident in divine guidance.
But I know who holds the future so I'm good to go
Trust in God's control over the future.
Had some highs and we had some lows
Acknowledging life's ups and downs with the assurance of God's presence.
My mother told me that you're with me and that's good to know
Reassured by a message from the mother about God's companionship.
I took it slow
Taking life at a steady pace, acknowledging different seasons.
There's times and seasons
Accepting life's uncertainties and challenges.
And they shook the boat
-Hands are made for working
Recognizing the purpose of hands and referencing a personal book.
that's the book I wrote
-Now I'm practicing my preach
Transitioning to action, practicing what is preached.
Time to hit the road
Moving forward, embarking on a journey.
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