Living Nightmares
Silent Struggles: HARRY WAS HERE's Haunting Tale
Lyrics
It was always way too much
There was always an excessive amount of something.
Pulling back at every touch
Resisting or recoiling from physical contact.
Living nightmares you used to love
Experiencing distressing situations that were previously enjoyable.
Quiet voices that won't shut up
Hearing internal thoughts or doubts that persist.
Take my eyes leave me my ears
Metaphorically, willing to lose sight but not hearing.
Better dead than when I can't hear
Prefer death over losing the sense of hearing.
Second in silence feels like a year
A short period of silence feels extremely long.
No reply I'm the only one here
Feeling isolated with no response from anyone else.
And I can't take the silence no more
Intolerant of the prevailing silence.
So I go run and hide but there's no where
Attempting to escape but finding no refuge.
Not quite who I thought I was gonna be
Not meeting the expected self-image.
But it's not over so I just wait patiently
Waiting with patience despite ongoing struggles.
I can't go to sleep with the lights all off
Unable to sleep in total darkness due to fear.
Secrets that I keep ima type no talking
Keeping secrets without expressing them verbally.
Devil watching me and I might slip up
Feeling like one is being observed by malevolent forces.
I got enemies that I might wake up now
Fearing the awakening of adversaries or problems.
Don't come to Hollywood it's a terrible place
Warning against the disillusionment of Hollywood.
AIn't no second looks you can see in their face it's time
No opportunity for reconsideration is evident from facial expressions.
Made up their minds
Decisions have been made conclusively.
It was always way too much
Continuation of an overwhelming situation.
Pulling back at every touch
Reacting negatively to physical contact.
Living nightmares you used to love
Reiterating distressing experiences previously enjoyed.
Quiet voices that won't shut up
Recurring internal thoughts or doubts.
Take my eyes leave me my ears
Sacrificing sight but preserving the ability to hear.
Better dead than when I can't hear
Prefer death rather than losing the sense of hearing.
Second in silence feels like a year
A brief silence feels immensely long.
No reply I'm the only one here
Feeling alone with no response from others.
Miss myself when I wasn't so mad
Nostalgic for a past version of oneself not plagued by anger.
I can't tell why I feel so bad
Unable to comprehend the reason for feeling terrible.
Sit in silence that I can't stand
Discomfort with the absence of sound.
Write these songs on the back of my
Writing songs while feeling troubled.
If I go falling for their favor one more
Repeatedly risking favor with someone or something.
Time I won't get up
No longer able to recover after one more attempt.
This is me calling for an early grave cuz
Expressing a desire for an early death due to feeling inadequate.
I wasn't' enough
Believing one's efforts weren't sufficient.
Guess I'm giving up
Deciding to surrender or give up.
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