Count To Three
Undecided Echoes: Counting Moments of Heartache
Lyrics
Count to three, then make your mind up
Contemplating a decision; take a moment before deciding.
I know it's not easy but who said it would be?
Acknowledging that the decision-making process is challenging.
Don't stare - or they might see you there
Warning against being observed while making decisions.
Cause you know that you don't like talking
Uncomfortable with conversation; prefers silence.
Just a bit more then you hate being on your own
Dislikes solitude slightly less than engaging in conversation.
I wanna leave
Expressing a desire to leave a current situation or mindset.
"It's time I get going"
Deciding to depart from the current circumstance.
Im checking my phone as if I'm
Checking phone anxiously, possibly feeling late or restless.
late to be somewhere
Sense of urgency or unease about being late or missing something.
Then silence fills the air
Transition to a silent atmosphere, creating contemplation.
And I walk home undecided
Undecided about the path or decision while walking home.
If I lack confidence or I hate to see you close
Uncertain if lacking confidence or disliking proximity to someone.
Still haven't made up my damn mind
Struggling to make a decision and anticipating indecision persisting.
And I never will
Acceptance that a decision may never be reached.
There's not enough time to kill
Acknowledging the limitation of time available for decision-making.
Usually counting works best for me
Preference for counting as a decision-making strategy.
Stuart once had told me
Reference to advice on living in the moment for mental freedom.
"That to free your mind you've gotta live your life in the moment"
Struggling to live in the moment, stuck in one's thoughts.
But lately I just can't get out of my head
Questioning a possible disconnect or loss of touch with reality.
Am I losing touch?
Doubt about finding the courage to attempt something.
Cause I can't find the nerve to try
Continuous contemplation without taking action due to fear.
And I think about it all the time
Constantly thinking about the decision without resolution.
Still haven't made up my damn mind
Indecision persists, and a decision is still not made.
And I never will (And I never will)
Acknowledgment that a decision may never be reached.
There's not enough time to kill
Recognizing the constraints of time in the decision-making process.
You let me live inside your mind
Reflecting on living within someone else's thoughts or influence.
And it hurt like hell (Yeah it hurt like hell)
Experiencing emotional pain when rejected or pushed away.
When you kicked me out
Recalling the hurtful act of being rejected.
Looking up symptoms on web MD
Searching for medical explanations for emotional distress.
Convinced that there's something wrong with me
Believing there's a physical reason for emotional struggles.
Cause you're a thought that drives laps in record time on a circuit
Continuous mental fixation on a particular thought or person.
And lately I just can't get out of my bed
Struggling to break free from obsessive thoughts in bed.
Where you used to park and multiply that list of reasons why
Revisiting a location associated with memories and reasons for indecision.
I can't etch you out of my own mind
Difficulty removing someone from one's thoughts.
Yeah I was thinking I could write this off
Initial expectation of moving on, now facing constant reminders.
But now I see you everyday
Realization that encountering the person regularly complicates moving on.
(Now I see you everyday)
Regular visual encounters with the person through a phone screen.
Through the screen of my phone
Ongoing exposure to the person's presence through technology.
(Through the screen of my phone)
Reliance on the phone for connection, despite a broken screen.
When it broke I thought I'd be okay. Hey
Initial expectation of emotional resilience, now facing difficulty.
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