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Warned I'd be an addict now I got bad habits
Warned about potential addiction, now struggling with bad habits.
Woke up same shit take a hit now I pass it
Wakes up to a routine of substance use and passes it along.
Monotonous living everyday, never winning
Monotonous life, constant struggles, and never experiencing success.
Love sinning
Enjoys sinful behaviors.
I'll be lucky if I get more time to live it
Uncertain about having more time to live.
Always love a good time
Enjoys having a good time.
So I get real high, we just having good times
Uses substances to enhance good times.
Know I have a dark side
Acknowledges a dark side within.
My tongue says life's hard so I bite it
Speaks about life's challenges and tries to endure.
Nothing I love more than a riot
Expresses love for chaos and rebellion.
Born being reckless, know I can't help it
Inherently reckless and can't change it.
Sometimes I get high
Uses substances to escape reality.
So I can't see this
Gets high to avoid facing certain realities.
That's the only way I know that lets me leave this
Substances are the only escape from the current situation.
Babe there ain't a way you could ever change it
Resistance to change, accepting oneself.
Know I'm really sad really love it when I'm faded
Finds solace in sadness and being intoxicated.
Tend to get high when I'm on the verge of breaking
Uses substances when reaching a breaking point.
Been a hard year we've had hard times
Reflects on a challenging year with tough times.
So we take a couple fat lines
Resorts to substances to cope with difficulties.
Know you don't agree with my methods
Recognizes disagreement about coping methods but asserts its effectiveness.
But I know you know its the only thing that's helping
Substances are perceived as the only effective coping mechanism.
When your stuck in your head like me
Struggles with self-reflection and dissatisfaction.
You just wonder why, why am I not happy
Questions why personal happiness is elusive.
All the reasons why, why I'll never be
Recognizes and accepts reasons for perpetual unhappiness.
If you've seen what I've seen then you would see
Claims understanding only possible through shared experiences.
Been a hard year we've had hard times
Reflects again on a difficult year and hard times.
Compensating with the fat lines
Continues to use substances to cope with challenges.
As a kid whos fighting his depression
Reflects on childhood trauma and ongoing struggles with depression.
Time goes on I don't think the traumas helping
Doubts the effectiveness of time in healing trauma.
I know it ain't helping it's the only thing that I see
Recognizes substances as the predominant focus due to depression.
When I dream baby
Escapes reality through dreams but acknowledges difficulty.
Makes you wanna meet the light sometimes
Desires a break from hardships and seeks light.
It's hard but I'm fighting
Struggles persist, but there's an ongoing fight against them.
Still trying today somehow better than I've ever been
Despite hardships, there's an attempt at personal improvement.
Don't make since I know I should be broken
Perceived contradiction in feeling better than expected.
Know somedays are harder than the others
Recognizes the variability in the difficulty of each day.
Every single one of them I miss my fucking brother
Expresses consistent longing for a lost sibling.
Know there's a lot of things on my mind daily
Daily thoughts are consumed by various concerns.
So I hope you understand why I'm faded
Justifies substance use as a means to cope with daily challenges.
If you can't that is something that I understand
Recognizes that understanding might be challenging for others.
Fighting to survive I'm just trying to be a better man
Enduring a struggle to survive and striving for personal improvement.
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