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Another hard night,
Expressing a challenging night
Fraying at the seams,
Experiencing difficulties and strain
I took out the stitches,
Removing the figurative stitches, possibly trying to heal
But my scars will always bleed,
Permanent emotional wounds and struggles
So dark inside,
Feeling internally troubled and obscure
I'm a hard story to read,
A complex and difficult life story
I'll probably never feel better,
Pessimistic about improvement but holding onto dreams
But I can always dream
Retaining hope through dreams
All my life,
Lifetime filled with suffering
Riddled with pain,
Enduring pain throughout life
Your staring through a hollow man,
Being transparent and emotionally exposed
Persecution, the retribution,
Facing persecution and retribution for unknown actions
For what ever it was I did,
Seeking elements of personal value
To find my pride my will my love,
Struggling to rediscover pride, will, and love
My self respect has come undone,
Experiencing a breakdown of self-respect
Close to losing life by my own hand,
Near self-destruction
Dig deep inside to find my worth,
Searching internally for self-worth
To instigate my own rebirth,
Initiating personal transformation
At deaths door but there's been a change of plan
Averted from a self-destructive path
Life, death, it's my call
Claiming control over life and death
Hopeless, I was taught to be this
Learned hopelessness
Want it, take it, my law
Asserting personal rules and desires
You can call it arrogance but I just call it like I see it,
Defending straightforwardness as opposed to arrogance
When I think,
Reflecting on situations with a more optimistic perspective
It’s not as bad as it seems,
Realizing that things may not be as dire as they seem
My cold dead tainted heart,
A heart that feels lifeless and tainted
Always reminds me,
Constantly reminded of emotional struggles
All my life consumed with hate,
A life dominated by hatred
It’s the disease my head creates,
Mental struggles causing internal conflicts
Motivation through determination find happiness that I've displaced,
Seeking motivation and happiness
I'm letting go of everything,
Letting go of negative influences
Of everyone that's in my way,
Removing obstacles and people hindering progress
Of all the things in life that keep me down,
Rejecting aspects of life that bring one down
Claim the space that's my domain,
Asserting control over personal space
Scream you all and scrap my plate,
Expressing frustration and rejecting past experiences
Past is in the trash and I am done,
Leaving behind a troubled past
Life, death, it's my call
Reiterating control over life and death
Hopeless, I was taught to be this
Embracing a sense of hopelessness as a learned behavior
Want it, take it, my law
Insisting on personal desires and actions
You can call it arrogance but I just call it like I see it,
Defending directness as opposed to arrogance
Life, death, it's my call
Reaffirming control over life and death
Hopeless, I was taught to be this
Acknowledging learned hopelessness
Want it, take it, my law
Asserting personal desires and actions
You can call it arrogance but I just call it like I see it,
Defending straightforwardness as opposed to arrogance
Life, death, my call
Reiterating control over life and death
Hardness, I've grown up to be this
Accepting a tough and resilient nature
Ruin, destroy me, you all
Challenging others to bring about personal destruction
You can call it arrogance but I just call it like I see it
Defending directness as opposed to arrogance
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