Lyrics
It's such a shame
Expressing regret or disappointment about a situation.
That sometimes everything is grey
Highlighting the prevalence of dullness or monotony in life.
That logically I know the strengths, but cant seem to soak them in
Acknowledging personal strengths but struggling to internalize them.
While at a glance, my chance of hiding my comatose presence is less than expected
Difficulty in concealing a state of unconsciousness or numbness.
Though remaining undetected
Despite efforts, the attempt to remain unnoticed is challenging.
Has increased with distractions and preoccupations
Increased chances of going unnoticed due to distractions.
It's been my obligation
Expressing a sense of duty or responsibility.
To attempt to not mislead myself with active inner eyes or hot dead hearts
Avoiding self-deception and false perceptions.
Or paint the sky rose with broad strokes and seek shapes in the clouds
Resisting the temptation to romanticize or idealize reality.
Creating hopes from a substance unbeknownst to me
Creating expectations from unknown or uncertain elements.
In deafening day dreams
Engaging in unrealistic daydreams.
Impractical schemes that bear no benefit to me and are ungracious
Engaging in impractical plans that offer no personal benefit.
To those that are close
Acknowledging the negative impact on close relationships.
Those that rely on me most
Recognizing responsibility to those who depend on the speaker.
I'm lost in the wrinkles of the flesh in my head
Feeling overwhelmed and entangled in mental complexities.
It's controlling me instead
Suggesting a loss of control to internal struggles.
And as they grow smooth I'm sealed inside and expect death
Fearing entrapment and anticipating a bleak outcome.
Unable to move, unable to change my temperament and mood
Feeling stuck and unable to change emotional states.
And patience
Highlighting the challenge of maintaining patience.
I space when faced with the displacement
Experiencing detachment when faced with displacement.
And awaken from hibernation at random
Coming out of a dormant or passive state unexpectedly.
And adjust to the life I've been living
Adapting to the current life situation in tandem with the host.
In tandem with my host
Describing a dull and uninspiring existence.
My drab, grey, living ghost who sends me orders from the center my skull
Receiving orders or guidance from within one's own mind.
Leading me back to standard tactics
Returning to familiar patterns or routines.
Task to task
Engaging in tasks one after another without a clear direction.
I offer my hand but it refuses to grasp it
Offering help or connection, but facing rejection.
I can't see the diamonds past the rough
Unable to perceive the beauty or value beyond initial difficulties.
The preciousness of each moment
Questioning the significance of each fleeting moment.
I question whether its invasive roots
Contemplating whether challenges erode resilience or dilute truth.
Chew through my resilience or if I use it to dilute the truth
Weighing the impact of adversity on personal strength.
Any moment, this or them I could lose
Reflecting on the fragility of life and the potential for loss.
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