Staring At The Abyss
Descent into the Abyss: A Haunting Journey of Self-Reflection and Despair
Lyrics
Blind!
Feeling unable to perceive or understand.
You're blind, you traitors
Addressing those who betray, emphasizing their blindness to their actions.
Pine by the spear of your abdication
Longing or suffering due to the consequences of giving up power or responsibility.
Raise your cross in honour
Honoring the symbol of faith despite one's cowardly actions.
Of your laid cowardice
Honoring the cowardice displayed instead of bravery.
Remorse filling your eyes
Regret and guilt evident in the eyes.
The mirror of your soul
Reflecting the inner essence or truth of oneself.
Sign of a silent truth
An indication of a truth unspoken or concealed.
Suffered on skin but cast aside
Pain experienced but disregarded or abandoned.
I’m looking for a place
Searching for a place or state that is believed not to exist.
That I know don’t exist
An unattainable place or state sought after.
I’m looking for another story
Seeking a narrative that won't cause harm.
That won’t hurt me
Seeking a story devoid of hurtful elements.
Your fucking words
Expressions causing persistent mental disturbance.
Keep running in my head
Repetition of troubling thoughts.
Did you find a way out?
Inquiring about finding an escape.
Did you find a way out?
Repetition of the inquiry about finding an escape.
My mask is steming
A mask concealing true feelings.
Unparalleled floods of memories
Intense recollections overwhelming the mind.
A scorching heat surfacing
Intense emotions resurfacing.
In every moment of my new life
Experiencing intense emotions in a new phase of life.
I’m too fucking far
A feeling of being distant or detached.
Where you can hear the sounds of reality and pain
Where the harsh realities and pains are perceptible.
There’s no light here
An absence of illumination or hope.
No paths, no beginning, no end
A state lacking direction or resolution.
My hell is my asylum
One's personal turmoil serving as a refuge.
I’ve killed you a hundred of times in my head
Mentally replaying scenarios of causing harm to someone.
I dragged you with me
Dragging someone along in one's mental struggles.
I dragged you in my hole
Forcing someone else into one's state of mental anguish.
I walked mind fields in my head
Navigating through dangerous mental territories.
Longing for despair
Desiring intense grief or hopelessness.
Staring at this abyss
Gazing intensely into a state of hopelessness or despair.
A bottomless void of souls
A void that seems never-ending, filled with lost souls.
Drowning in their own defeat\
Sinking into one's own failures and inadequacies.
A sense of nothingness is filling me now
An overwhelming feeling of emptiness taking over.
I shall dive in
Choosing to fully immerse into this state.
Leaving the ax and the shield on the ground
Abandoning tools of defense or offense.
I scream to death to say: “how?”
A plea or cry to understand the reason for suffering.
I’m stuck in here
Feeling trapped or confined within a situation.
I’m stuck in here
Reiteration of feeling stuck or confined.
Watching you out there
Observing others confined while being stuck oneself.
Locked up in cages
Others being confined or restrained.
Yes, I know
Acknowledging awareness of what lies beyond a barrier.
I know what’s behind that door
Acknowledging knowledge of what is hidden or inaccessible.
Just one last thing
Desiring one final experience before departing.
Then I can go,
Seeking closure before moving on.
Devour me now, oh dishonour
Asking for dishonor to consume and weaken oneself.
Give me the strenghth to fail
Requesting strength to fail or falter.
I wash my identity away
Renouncing one's identity to endure suffering.
To endure this pain
Choosing to endure immense pain.
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