Jawbreaker Shirt
Jawbreaker Threads of Love and Loss
Lyrics
Believe me when I said
Expressing sincerity, urging belief in a forthcoming statement
I wish I chose these words instead
Regret about the choice of words, a desire for different expression
I would rewrite them
Wishing to rewrite the words but acknowledging limited poetic ability
But I'm not much of a poet
Self-awareness of not being proficient in poetry
And all of our friends all gathered there
Describing a gathering of friends
I wanted to ask but I just stare
Wanting to ask something but hesitating and just staring
I found a strand of your hair
Discovery of a strand of the person's hair on the speaker's Jawbreaker shirt
On my Jawbreaker shirt
Significance of the Jawbreaker shirt in the context of the relationship
Everyone believes
Highlighting the tendency of people to believe in their own perspectives
In their own bullshit
Commentary on self-deception and belief in one's own false narratives
You have cigarette breathe
Observing the other person having breath smelling of cigarettes
And I just can't quit
Expressing difficulty in quitting a habit or relationship
I'm afraid of the quiet
Fear of silence that accompanies the situation
That comes along with it
Choosing to keep silent and internalize words instead of expressing them
So I just swallow the words
Metaphorically describing the act of suppressing words
And choke on them
Conveying the discomfort and struggle of suppressing one's thoughts
And you go walking in your garden
Depicting the other person in a garden with everything appearing lifeless
Where everything is dead
Contrasting the desolate state of the garden with the person's presence
"If you loved them
Quoting a statement about love and care for something, possibly a metaphor
You would water them anyway"
Questioning the sincerity of the other person's actions
No, no you treat me like a book
Feeling undervalued or disregarded, comparing oneself to a book
So many pages overlooked
Noticing aspects of oneself being overlooked or ignored
I wonder if you'll buy my story
Questioning if the other person will accept or understand the speaker's story
This time
Expressing hope for a positive outcome this time
And I guess owe a debt
Acknowledging a debt owed and contemplating its repayment
I should just pay it off instead
Suggesting a willingness to settle the debt and move forward
I really want things to work out
Expressing a strong desire for things to improve in the relationship
This time
Reiteration of hope for a positive outcome in the current situation
And it feels like pulling teeth
Describing the effort required in the relationship as akin to pulling teeth
To see which one of us cares the least
Highlighting a perceived indifference or competition in caring
If I didn't why would I even
Raising a question about the speaker's commitment and effort
Try?
Expressing a determination to try despite challenges
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