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I can't even remember when the sun died
The speaker can't recall a time when positivity or brightness existed ("the sun died").
There's just drabness in my mind
Their mind feels dull and lacks vibrancy.
Why should I explain that even breathing is so tiring
The effort of even breathing feels exhausting, highlighting a deep weariness.
On a crossing leading to the other side
They feel stuck or at a crossroads, unsure about moving forward.
Leave me lying calmly under the creased blanket
Desire to remain in a passive state, under a metaphorical "creased blanket," avoiding reality.
Let me doze off and go away
Wishing to slip away or escape from the present situation.
Darken the room with autumnal twilight
Wanting to embrace darkness symbolized by "autumnal twilight," possibly preferring a somber atmosphere.
Open the windows to freezing air
Inviting discomfort ("freezing air") by opening windows, possibly seeking solace in discomfort.
Yesterday I observed the sky, awaiting a ray of light
The speaker hoped for positivity but found only darkness around them.
But all I could see around me was completely dark
Accepting a state of darkness and despair, likening it to an eternal night.
As reconciled flesh leisurely consumed by eternal night
Feeling resigned to the idea of life being consumed by a perpetual darkness or struggle.
Through the mouth of Mors, with every new breath I am inhaling death
Suggesting an acceptance of death as a constant presence in life.
Falling into a warm volcanic throat
Metaphorically falling into an inescapable and consuming state of darkness or despair.
Never to be born again
Feeling like there's no chance for rebirth or renewal.
Relief's waiting at the end of the road
Belief that relief from pain exists at the end of this dark journey.
Deliverance from torturous pain
Seeking liberation from intense suffering.
Why are you telling me merciful drivel about the will to live?
Rejecting optimistic or hopeful advice about life due to a profound sense of hopelessness.
My power is gone, just a pre-mortal feeling deep inside of me
Feeling completely drained of strength and vitality.
My train is brought to a standstill in a neglected terminal station
Stuck in a state of stagnation or halted progress, comparing it to an abandoned train station.
Just howling of forsaken dogs as a closing oration
Feeling abandoned or neglected, likening their situation to the howling of forsaken dogs.
The awaited morning is not coming again
No hope for a brighter future, as each new day feels the same as the last.
Night simply turned into another one
Continued darkness and despair with no change or improvement.
Every look back hurts as a knife stab in brain
Past experiences cause deep emotional pain, akin to a stabbing sensation in the mind.
Flashbacks are bringing me down
Memories from the past contribute to a worsening emotional state.
Today's winners stand on the opposite shore
Feeling envious or resentful towards those who seem to have found happiness or salvation.
Glad they are saved for another day
Observing others' happiness while feeling a sense of loss or deprivation.
Everyhting that could be lost... is lost
Acknowledging a complete loss of everything important or valuable.
Such an extremely dark day!
Summarizing the day as extremely dark, capturing the intense sense of despair and hopelessness.
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