Learning How To Tell Myself The Truth
Journey of Self-Discovery: Embracing Truth in Ilan Blustin's Melody
Lyrics
I started up the engine and I told myself I aint afraid
I started the engine and convinced myself not to be afraid.
I summoned all the confidence I needed for to drive myself away
I gathered the confidence needed to drive away.
But no matter where I am babe I always find myself outside your door
Regardless of my location, I consistently find myself outside your door.
Am I under a spell can someone tell me what the hell is this all for
Questioning if I'm under a spell and seeking understanding of the situation.
I thought that I could carry the whole world on my back but I was wrong
Realizing I cannot bear the weight of the world on my shoulders.
Who am I trying to fool baby you and I both know I aint that strong
Acknowledging that I am not as strong as I pretend to be.
Maybe if I dig a little deeper I'll find something I missed
Considering a deeper exploration to find something I may have overlooked.
But babe what if I find a little proof that you and I just don't exist
Contemplating the possibility of discovering evidence that our relationship is not real.
All I am
Expressing my identity.
All I'll be
Describing my existence.
Everything I can and cannot see
Referring to everything I know and don't know.
On the run
Being on the run.
On the loose
Being free.
Searching for the substance of abuse
Searching for a source of comfort or escape.
I'm learning how to tell myself the truth
Emphasizing the process of learning to be honest with myself.
I guess staying up all night and fighting with yourself takes it's toll
Acknowledging the toll of staying up all night and internal conflicts.
I bought myself a ride into the darkness but it cost me my soul
Purchasing a journey into darkness at the expense of losing my soul.
If I go I'm going crazy if I stay there's no telling what I'll do
Weighing the consequences of going crazy or uncertain actions if I stay.
You said you'd love me anyway but darling we both know that just aint true
Recognizing that your claimed love may not be true.
All I am
Reiterating my identity.
All I'll be
Reiterating my existence.
Everything I can and cannot see
Reiterating everything I know and don't know.
On the run
Being on the run.
On the loose
Being free.
Searching for the substance of abuse
Searching for a source of comfort or escape.
I'm learning how to tell myself the truth
Emphasizing the ongoing process of learning to be honest with myself.
I'm learning how to tell myself the truth
Continuing to learn and internalize the truth about myself.
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