Substantial Guilt vs. The Irony of Enjoying
Unveiling the Dark Tapestry: A Symphony of Purity and Despair
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And I lay numb, waiting for
Expressing a state of emotional numbness while anticipating a negative event.
Something worse to happen. s
Expecting something even more distressing to occur.
Sweet innocence, it happened
Reflecting on a sudden and unexpected loss of innocence.
So suddenly. She crossed my path
Encountering someone described as an angel of purity.
on the way to nothingness, I knew
A sense of emptiness on a journey to nothingness.
That I was encountering an angel
Realization of encountering a pure and angelic being.
Of purity and in the process
Acknowledging the purity of the encountered angel.
I've quickly understood that I don't
Recognition of not deserving the purity observed.
deserve her, none of us, humans, do. beholding such a fatality leave you empty with bitter grief. life seems
Feeling empty and sorrowful at the sight of such purity.
To be tarnished and sour, raped
Perceiving life as tainted and bitter.
in its very essence, but sorrow is rapidly replaced by frustration,
Sorrow giving way to frustration, envy, and despair.
Envy & despair. dressed in white,
Visualizing a child dressed in white, fragile yet beautiful.
A child alone, so fragile and beautiful
Experiencing exhilaration in holding the child closely.
has dawn, to hold her close was exhilarating in a most vicious way.
Feeling both weak and empowered, the experience being vicious.
I felt so weak, yet empowered somehow. one thing leading to
Reflecting on a chain of events leading to the desire for purity.
another, I knew then, that if I could not experience nor possess purity,
Expressing the determination to grasp and control purity.
I would at least try to grasp it and choke the life out of it. and I did,
Admitting to violently acting on the desire to possess purity.
oh why, I don't know but I did... violently, I've pummeled her face
Expressing confusion and uncertainty about the violent actions taken.
With my bare fists till she became awfully deformed, bleeding and dying,
Describing brutal physical harm inflicted on the child.
all twisted in terror... I, I, I have forcefully replaced every missing
Detailing further violence and deformation inflicted on the child.
Teeth in her mouth by razor sharp shards of glass, slowly inserting every
Describing a gruesome replacement of missing teeth with glass shards.
piece of glass in the little one's gum. why was I laughing?
Questioning the disturbing act and expressing a bizarre sense of amusement.
I guess that is my art, to inflict upon purity the only thing I can give, and unfortunately it's
Defining the act as a form of art, inflicting harm on purity as the only contribution.
not love. I should've feel guilty, I know, but it simply didn't occur.
Expressing a lack of guilt despite an awareness of its appropriateness.
(As I am unable to put the knife through my own flesh anymore...)
Mentioning an inability to self-harm, possibly suggesting internal conflict.
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