Lyrics
Up on late night shifts drugs on my night stand
Expressing involvement in late-night activities involving drugs.
I hate everybody but its me I cant stand
Feeling a dislike for everyone else, with a self-loathing undertone.
Ima die young fly high peter pan
Contemplating a premature death but aspiring to fly high like Peter Pan.
People cant stand what they cant understand
Highlighting the discomfort people feel towards what they cannot comprehend.
So Ima do my own thing baby can you hold my hand
Choosing an independent path and seeking companionship.
I guess you leaving was part of the plan
Acknowledging a departure as part of destiny.
But I don't wanna let go cant stand this endeavor
Reluctance to let go and endure the associated challenges.
You said you love me
Recalling a declaration of love.
Thought that meant forever
Believing in the eternal nature of love.
Thought it meant forever
Reiteration of the expectation that love is everlasting.
Thought it meant forever
Emphasizing the desire for enduring love.
Tell me baby do you really like me
Seeking validation of affection from a significant other.
Knew that you were leaving before you told me yea
Awareness of an impending departure before it is communicated.
I've been steady rocking in my white tee
Consistently waiting for emotional support and connection.
I just been waiting for you to hold me yea
Desire for physical comfort and intimacy.
And can you tell me that you love me
Requesting verbal reassurance of love.
I can understand if you don't trust me
Acknowledging a potential lack of trust in the relationship.
Honestly don't know why you want me
Expressing confusion about being desired.
But you want me
Acceptance of being wanted despite uncertainties.
How lovely
Reflecting on the beauty of being desired.
Uh pulled up in the phantom
Arriving in a luxurious vehicle, possibly indicating success.
Don't got money on me gotta get my bands up
Need to improve financial status.
When your momma saw me
Receiving a compliment on appearance from someone's mother.
That bitch said I'm handsome
Positive reinforcement of attractiveness.
Sometimes i feel alive but its random
Experiencing sporadic feelings of vitality.
I don't really know if anybody really cares
Uncertainty about the concern or care of others.
Break my heart baby I don't care
Indifference to emotional pain.
Tryna play your games but your games aint fair
Engaging in a relationship despite perceived unfairness.
Your telling me goodbye you aint going nowhere
Resistance to a farewell, questioning its sincerity.
Up on late night shifts drugs on my night stand
Repetition of activities and emotions from earlier lines.
I hate everybody but its me I cant stand
Reiteration of a negative self-perception.
Ima die young fly high peter pan
Repeating the aspiration for a short-lived but impactful life.
People cant stand what they cant understand
Highlighting societal discomfort with the unfamiliar.
So Ima do my own thing baby can you hold my hand
Reaffirming independence and seeking connection.
I guess you leaving was part of the plan
Acceptance of a departure as part of a larger plan.
But I don't wanna let go cant stand this endeavor
Reluctance to let go, emphasizing the difficulty.
You said you love me
Recalling a past declaration of love.
Thought that meant forever
Belief in the eternal nature of love, echoing earlier lines.
Thought it meant forever
Repetition emphasizing the desire for enduring love.
Thought it meant forever
Reiteration of the expectation that love is everlasting.
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