Control
Navigating Emotional Turbulence: Isabelle Hyde's Reflection on Self-Control and Vulnerability
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I can control myself
I have the ability to control my own actions and emotions.
I can control myself all I want
I can exert self-control as much as I desire.
But I have no hold on how
I lack control over how others may harm my loved ones.
Others might hurt the ones that I love
Aware of the potential harm others may inflict on those I care about.
The traffic is loud
The external noise is overwhelming.
The traffic is numbing all my senses
The constant traffic noise is dulling my senses.
The reckless are proud
Those who are reckless take pride, challenging my defenses.
Making me sweat through all my defenses
Feeling vulnerable despite my defenses.
I just wanna talk
Expressing a desire to communicate.
Both your ears off
An intense desire to talk extensively.
I just wanna stop
Expressing a wish to cease self-doubt.
Second guessing myself
Struggling with self-doubt and the desire to overcome it.
Second guessing myself
A repetition of the struggle with self-doubt.
I have a handle on my tongue
Confident in controlling verbal expression.
It's just an extension of my thoughts
Verbal expression is an extension of thoughts.
But I have no handle on
Lacking control over excessive and uncontrollable talk.
The rampant rambling that I've got
Unable to control the incessant and aimless rambling.
My mind is so loud
The mind is plagued by loud and persistent anxiety.
Anxiety echos off the walls
Anxiety reverberates throughout the mind.
What if I lost
Fear of losing the things that provide stability.
All that keeps me from falling
The fear of falling into uncertainty.
I just wanna talk
Expressing the desire to communicate intensively.
Both your ears off
An intense longing to cease self-doubt through communication.
I just wanna stop
Continuation of the struggle to overcome self-doubt.
Second guessing myself
Reiterating the ongoing battle with self-doubt.
I'm second guessing myself
Repetition of the struggle with self-doubt.
I think I strained a heart string
Suspecting emotional strain from imagining potential scenarios.
Imagining what might be
The challenge of continuing in the face of disturbing thoughts.
How does anyone keep going
Questioning resilience in the face of traumatic experiences.
When they've seen more horrific things than me
Comparing personal experiences to others with more profound trauma.
Am I entitled or just weak
Doubting whether personal struggles warrant expression.
To complain about what has happened to me
Reflecting on the right to express personal grievances.
This self-centered poetry
Expressing frustration with self-centered expression.
Is really starting to get to me
Feeling overwhelmed by self-centered expression.
I just wanna talk
Intense desire to communicate extensively persists.
Both your ears off
Expressing a wish to overcome self-doubt through communication.
I just wanna stop
Continuation of the desire to stop second-guessing.
Second guessing myself
Reaffirming the ongoing battle with self-doubt.
I'm second guessing myself
Repetition of the struggle with self-doubt.
I'm second guessing myself
Continued reflection on self-doubt and uncertainty.
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