As of Lately
Navigating Life's Maze: Jaden Castro's Reflection in 'As of Lately'
Lyrics
My doctor told me not to call you on the phone
Refraining from calling someone on the doctor's advice due to the emotional impact of hearing their voice.
cause every time I listen to your voice I'm in my zone
Feeling a sense of comfort or inspiration when listening to the person's voice.
I'm sick and tired of the energy they sending me
Expressing frustration with negative energy received from others.
Before you make some friends you gotta make some enemies
Highlighting the necessity of experiencing both friendships and enmities in life.
Back in elementary I was a shy dude
Reflecting on a reserved personality during elementary school.
But middle school I was tryna find fools
Transitioning to a more outgoing attitude during middle school.
Playing Zelda as a kid up in hyrule
Recalling childhood memories of playing Zelda in the fictional land of Hyrule.
But by high school I was getting high too
Admitting to engaging in substance use during high school.
People came, people went but that's just life dude
Acceptance of the transient nature of relationships in life.
A few friends that I keep close but I don't like to
Maintaining a small circle of friends with caution.
I'm such a close person
Describing oneself as a private individual.
The shows done, closed curtains
Referring to the conclusion of a performance or chapter in life.
Everyday I keep soul searching
Expressing a continuous process of self-discovery on a daily basis.
so determined to open up more
Determined to open up emotionally.
but when you step up to my porch you get a closed door
Keeping emotional distance, symbolized by a closed door.
I open up a bit then look through the cracks
Gradually revealing personal feelings but remaining cautious.
I'm still tryna figure why I keep on giving back
Pondering the motivation behind consistently helping others.
Lately I've been so low
Expressing a recent emotional downturn.
(So low like)
Maybe time moves slow
Perceiving time as moving slowly during difficult periods.
(Slow, slow, slow) x2
I'm moving back to my mamas house
Returning to one's mother's house, facing challenges but maintaining optimism.
now I got to sleep on my mama's couch fresh out the can but no Oscar the grouch
Describing the living situation and referencing "Oscar the Grouch" from Sesame Street.
I used to go house to house I used to sleep in the south on the floor.
Recalling a past period of instability and uncertainty.
That's how grounded my dreams was
Emphasizing the down-to-earth nature of past dreams.
they always mean mug when they see a kid with a dream cause they don't dream much
Noticing skepticism or disapproval from others when pursuing dreams.
They seem stuck on the same thing
Observing a societal fixation on the familiar and reluctance to dream.
I close my eyes just to change scenes
Seeking change by closing eyes metaphorically.
I don't listen to the mainstream
Rejecting mainstream influences.
the mainstream of consciousness is link to the same fiends
Linking mainstream consciousness to destructive habits.
that's why still feel solo
Feeling isolated due to a non-conformist mindset.
tryna find my mojo
Struggling to find inspiration or motivation.
So I kicked it with Hans solo
Connecting with an iconic character (Han Solo) to alleviate loneliness.
I found darkness in the light before
Experiencing challenges despite being in a positive or successful situation.
crashing on the earth like what killed the dinosaurs
Metaphorically referencing difficulties crashing onto Earth.
All type of wars going on, on the earth
Observing various conflicts and struggles on Earth.
From the soil and dirt
Identifying pain originating from the soil and dirt, symbolizing life's hardships.
I feel the pain and it's the worst
Expressing deep emotional pain.
Lately I've been so low
Reiterating the recent emotional low.
(So low like)
Maybe time moves slow
Perceiving time as moving slowly, emphasizing the emotional struggle.
(Slow, slow, slow) x2
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