Lyrics
They say when you lose you gain
Expressing the idea that losing can lead to gaining something.
Still trying to work this shit out
Struggling to understand or resolve a situation.
Like why I feel this way
Questioning the emotions and trying to comprehend the feelings.
Not knowing what I want when you're a call away
Feeling unsure about desires when the person is easily reachable by phone.
Its always been that way, trying to ease my pain
Consistently attempting to alleviate emotional pain.
I go insane, still the one I blame
Feeling a sense of madness and self-blame.
See telling you I love you shit I mean it when I say that shit
Expressing genuine love and regret for engaging in casual relationships.
Fuck him for the fuck of it not knowing you're the thought of it
Regretting engaging in casual relationships without realizing the impact on the current relationship.
I might be a thot for it but don't you know you started it
Acknowledging a possible promiscuous behavior but attributing it to the other person.
Now came back want all of it, now I treat you part of it
Expressing a desire to reclaim the relationship after realizing its importance.
Cautious your the cause of it, not sure if you want all of it
Being cautious about the impact of the relationship but unsure about commitment.
Stop you just from proving it, Cause I can't leave the one I'm with
Stopping oneself from proving a point due to an existing commitment.
Hard to say my mouth is full handing out my hearts a fool keep on
Difficulty expressing feelings while being emotionally vulnerable.
Bending all the rules like lying don't catch up to soon
Engaging in behavior that breaks conventional rules to avoid consequences.
He hit me on the East side made him my side, Don't know why
Describing a romantic encounter on the East side but questioning the decision to leave.
I left to soon
Feeling emotionally detached or indifferent.
I'm numb to you
Continuing to feel numb towards the person from the East side.
He hit me on the East side was down to ride, Don't know why I chose up soon
Recalling a romantic encounter on the East side and regretting the decision to choose otherwise.
I'm used to you
Becoming accustomed to the person from the East side.
Don't know why I lead you two, now my heart is blue
Regretting leading two people on and feeling a sense of sadness.
When your hearts as numb as you the damage it can do
Exploring the emotional damage when both hearts are numb.
Not knowing who's worth knowing you so decide to use the two
Choosing to use both people without understanding their worth.
Never thought to think this through
Reflecting on the consequences of not thinking things through.
I want you both I can't decide know its wrong but I can't lie
Expressing conflicting desires for both individuals but struggling to make a decision.
Put my guard up played both side
Building emotional defenses and playing both sides.
Dealt with fool who waste my time
Dealing with individuals who waste time.
Figured you was just like them so if
Suspecting the other person is similar to those who have caused harm.
I did you wrong my bad
Apologizing for potential wrongdoing influenced by negative individuals.
Influenced by vile men
Being influenced by toxic men.
An bitches who was just like them
Referring to negative influences from women similar to those toxic men.
And my chest is made of steel
Describing emotional resilience with a metaphorical chest made of steel.
And my heart just needs a fill
Expressing a need for emotional fulfillment for the heart.
An I know that you can tell
Acknowledging that the other person can sense the emotional struggles.
For real
Confirming the sincerity of emotions.
He hit me on the East side made him my side, Don't know why
Recalling a romantic encounter on the East side but questioning the decision to leave.
I left to soon
Continuing to feel numb towards the person from the East side.
I'm numb to you
Recalling a romantic encounter on the East side and regretting the decision to choose otherwise.
He hit me on the East side was down to ride, Don't know why I chose up soon
Becoming accustomed to the person from the East side.
I'm used to you
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