Christmas Now That You're Gone
Christmas Shadows: Navigating Heartbreak Amidst Festive Lights
Lyrics
I don't really feel so merry
I am not feeling festive or joyful.
The lights are up, the room feels dark
The holiday lights are on, but the atmosphere feels gloomy.
Your perfume never left your scarf
Your scent lingers on your scarf, emphasizing your absence.
I didn't know it'd feel so heavy
I didn't anticipate the emotional weight of your absence.
The emptiness inside my arms
Feeling a void within my arms without you.
But wintertime was always ours
Our shared memories during winter are now painful.
Now your boots are by the door
Your boots, a symbol of your presence, are now untouched and covered in dust.
They're covered in dust instead of snow
Contrasting the expectation of snow, they remain unused.
And it's hard to find my place
Struggling to find my identity or purpose without you.
When I'm already home
Despite being physically home, it doesn't feel like my true home.
But it don't feel like home
The absence of your presence makes it feel unfamiliar.
They say that firsts are the very hardest
Commonly believed that first experiences are the most difficult.
Well I think they lied if I'm being honest
Expressing skepticism about the difficulty of initial experiences.
The pain just gets worse with each passing night and ooo
The pain intensifies with each passing night.
I put up the tree cus that's what you wanted
Decorating the Christmas tree as per your past wishes.
I drink whiskey neat and I hang up garland
Using whiskey to cope and reluctantly decorating with garland.
But everything's wrong cus I'm brokenhearted ooo
Despite efforts, everything feels wrong due to heartbreak.
And I know I said I'd be strong
Although I promised to be strong, I despise Christmas without you.
But I hate Christmas now that you're gone
Expressing the deep dislike for Christmas following your departure.
I don't wanna open presents
Unwilling to engage in the traditional act of opening presents.
There's nothing for me in this box
Nothing in the presents resonates with me.
Oh nobody's got what I want
No one has what I truly desire.
Please turn off the Christmas playlist
Requesting to stop playing Christmas songs.
Forget about the Christmas town
Ignoring the festive atmosphere of Christmas towns.
There's nothing for me on the ground
Nothing meaningful on the ground for me.
Hung your coat behind the door
Your coat, once hung for potential snowy outings, is now unused.
So you'd be prepared in case it snows
A gesture of preparation that remains unnecessary.
Guess you don't need it anymore
Your absence negates the need for the coat.
Cus you're not coming home
You won't be returning home.
No you're not coming home
Reiterating the permanence of your absence.
They say that firsts are the very hardest
Similar to line 12, expressing the enduring difficulty of initial experiences.
Well I think they lied if I'm being honest
Reiterating doubt about the commonly held belief.
The pain just gets worse with each passing night and ooo
The emotional pain worsens with time.
I put up the tree cus that's what you wanted
Continuing to honor your past Christmas wishes despite the pain.
I drink whiskey neat and I hang up garland
Using whiskey and garland to cope, but the sorrow persists.
But everything's wrong cus I'm brokenhearted ooo
Despite efforts, everything feels wrong due to heartbreak (repeated).
And I know I said I'd be strong
Reiterating the internal struggle and dislike for Christmas without you.
But I hate Christmas now that you're gone
Expressing the profound dislike for Christmas following your departure (repeated).
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