Lyrics
Did you think I'd forget
Reflecting on the expectation of being remembered
How lucky I felt to have met
Expressing gratitude for the fortunate encounter
Oh, the highs we had then
Nostalgic about past joyful experiences
What I'd give to feel it again
Desire to relive positive emotions
I don't know why I do it
Uncertain about personal motivations
I don't want to be alone
Aversion to solitude
But I need to be the first one out the door
Complicated relationship with leaving quickly
And I really like people
Fondness for people
Until I really don't
Conflicting emotions towards others
Looking over both my shoulders walking home
Vigilant and cautious while walking home
Every bite mark that I get
Associating physical marks with emotional pain
Is a hurt that
Repeated hurt as a consequence of actions
I like how you always smile
Appreciation for a positive trait in someone else
Watching you makes me feel like
Empowered and inspired by observation
I could do the same thing too
Belief in personal capability
But I'd hate to be deceiving
Aversion to deceit despite admiration
Tell me how you do it
Seeking guidance or understanding from someone
I don't want to be alone
Discomfort with solitude
But I need to be the first one out the door
Compulsion to be the first to leave
'Cause I really like people
Positive view of people with a flip side
Until I really don't
Conflicted feelings towards others
Looking over both my shoulders walking home
Vigilance and caution persist while walking home
Every bite mark that I get
Repeated emotional wounds through marks
Is a hurt that I collect
Embracing and internalizing emotional pain
Every bite mark that I get
Continued accumulation of emotional scars
Is a hurt that I collect
Emotional wounds become a part of identity
And ruminate inside
Reflecting on and pondering emotional scars
Living rent free in my mind
Unwanted thoughts residing in the mind
Draining me of all my time
Emotional drain and time-consuming thoughts
Even in my bed
Intrusive thoughts even in moments of rest
I'm my own worst enemy
Self-awareness of being one's own obstacle
Stop myself from getting sleep
Preventing oneself from achieving rest
It's not who I wanna be
Struggling with self-identity and desired self
Always in my head
Constant mental presence and preoccupation
In my head, in my head
Repetition of being trapped in thoughts
All I'm ever is in my head
Identity dominated by internal thoughts
In my head, in my head
Continued theme of mental preoccupation
All I'm ever is in my head
Reiteration of being stuck in one's thoughts
Every bite mark that I get
Emotional scars as a collection of hurts
Is a hurt that I collect
Acceptance and ownership of emotional pain
Every bite mark that I get
Continued accumulation of emotional scars
Is a hurt that I collect
Emotional wounds persist as a part of identity
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