Makin' It Worse
Heartbreak Harmony: Jaxen Spurs' Melodic Journey Through Pain
Lyrics
Had it hard enough not picking up my phone
Expressing difficulty in avoiding the urge to answer the phone.
I been waking up in this bed alone
Reflecting on the loneliness experienced waking up alone in bed.
Well I picked back up the smokes
Resuming smoking as a coping mechanism, searching for something to cling to.
Looking for anything to hold
Seeking any form of comfort or connection.
I wanna drink this bar half empty girl
Expressing a desire to drown sorrows and memories in alcohol.
And drown it in your memory
Wishing to overcome the pain by associating it with memories of the person.
Im making it worse till my heart unbreaks
Intentionally worsening the situation until the heart heals.
I don't need it anymore anyway
Declaring independence from the need for the person or the situation.
Pain killing till your nothing, but half of what I used to be
Using pain as a distraction, diminishing one's sense of self.
And I don't want to think I don't want to feel
Expressing a desire to avoid emotional pain and detachment from feelings.
I don't want to hear in time it heals
Rejecting the notion that time will heal all wounds.
I got a few things I want to take care of first
Prioritizing unresolved issues before moving on.
Like sitting right here
Choosing to stay in the current state rather than progressing.
Making it worse
Continuing actions that contribute to the worsening of the situation.
Im sure one day you'll be the last thing on my mind
Anticipating a future where the person is no longer a predominant thought.
And I'll be way too busy staring in the eyes of the rest of my life
Looking forward to being preoccupied with the possibilities of the future.
She won't know the words goodbye be forever by my side
Believing that goodbyes won't be permanent, hoping for lasting companionship.
But today just ain't tomorrow and I ain't ready to be alright
Acknowledging that the present isn't the same as the future and not ready for recovery.
Im making it worse till my heart unbreaks
Continuing to exacerbate the situation until emotional healing occurs.
I don't need it anymore anyway
Reiterating independence from the past, emphasizing it's unnecessary.
Pain killing till your nothing, but half of what I used to be
Using pain as a numbing agent, diminishing personal identity.
And I don't want to think I don't want to feel
Rejecting the idea of thinking, feeling, or hearing about the healing process.
I don't want to hear in time it heals
Resisting the belief that time will naturally heal emotional wounds.
I got a few things I want to take care of first
Maintaining a focus on unresolved matters before moving forward.
Like sitting right here
Choosing to stay in the current state rather than progressing.
Making it worse
Continuing actions that contribute to the worsening of the situation.
Im making it worse till my heart unbreaks
Persisting in exacerbating the situation until emotional healing takes place.
I don't need it anymore anyway
Emphasizing independence from the past, reiterating it's unnecessary.
Pain killing till your nothing, but half of what I used to be
Using pain as a numbing agent, diminishing personal identity.
And I don't want to think I don't want to feel
Rejecting the idea of thinking, feeling, or hearing about the healing process.
I don't want to hear in time it heals
Resisting the belief that time will naturally heal emotional wounds.
I got a few things I want to take care of first
Maintaining a focus on unresolved matters before moving forward.
Like sitting right here
Choosing to stay in the current state rather than progressing.
Making it worse
Continuing actions that contribute to the worsening of the situation.
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