Before I Know You're Gone
Embracing Change: Navigating Love's Uncertainty
Lyrics
I know what I'm thinking but I do not own my mind
I understand my thoughts, but I don't have complete control over my mind.
I cut down on drinking so I won't feel so blind
I've reduced my drinking to avoid feeling disoriented or unaware.
It isn't right to just keep running
It's not fair to continuously evade facing issues.
We both know what is coming
Both of us are aware of what lies ahead or what will happen.
I know I am changing, I can see the signs
I acknowledge that I'm evolving; there are clear indications of change.
Chide myself for thinking thoughts of moving on
I criticize myself for considering thoughts about moving on.
When I'm afraid of letting go before I know you're gone.
I'm hesitant to let go before realizing you've actually departed.
Party invitations and tables meant for two
Events and settings intended for couples, where I feel alone.
Broken conversations when walk in a room
Conversations that falter or break down when I enter a room.
Tell myself I can rise above it
I try to convince myself that I can overcome these feelings.
Walk around thinking nothing of it
I wander around pretending it doesn't affect me.
Too much to be guessing, too much to assume
There's too much uncertainty for guessing or assuming.
Catch me when I'm dreaming but I've done nothing wrong
During my dreams, you appear, but I haven't done anything wrong.
I'm just afraid of letting go before I know you're gone.
I fear releasing my hold before confirming your departure.
Maybe you'll return, maybe I'm insane
There's a possibility of your return, although it might seem irrational.
Maybe I'm a loser in some Godless evil game
I might feel like a failure in a seemingly unfair situation.
I can be my own worst critic
I'm highly critical of myself, often my own harshest judge.
Hero, friend or lonely cynic
I can take on various roles: a hero, a friend, or someone isolated and distrustful.
I won't be a victim but I'll never be the same
I refuse to be a passive victim but understand that I'll be forever changed.
Rain falls into puddles, night blurs into dawn
Natural elements and time pass seamlessly, blurring transitions.
When I'm afraid of letting go before I know you're gone.
Similar to line 7, the fear of releasing too soon, before confirming your absence.
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