Half the Time
Navigating Shadows: Jon Dee Graham's Reflections on Solitude and Sanity
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Well, maybe I'll drive up north for a while
Contemplating a journey up north for a period
Go and see some family
Planning to visit family
Livin' by myself here alone on the hill
Living in solitude on a hill, feeling the impact
Starts to wear on me
Sense of isolation becoming burdensome
Between the ghost in the yard and the angel in the tree
Reference to spectral presence and celestial figure
The roses in their beds get more sleep than me
Metaphorical comparison, expressing restlessness
Half the time, I think I'm crazy
Conflicted feelings, questioning mental stability
And the other half the time, I wish I was
Alternating desire for a different mental state
All the waiting I've done, for some sense of things to come
Long periods of anticipation for clarity in life
But it never does
Disappointment as clarity remains elusive
When I'm driving at night, I see pictures on the windshield
Reflection while driving at night, visualizing memories
The lights, the road and my picture show
Imagery of lights, road, and personal mental movie
I see the boys when they were babies, see Roy in the Air Force
Recollection of family, particularly Roy in the Air Force
I see things that never happened, well, they might have, I don't know
Uncertainty about the reality of certain memories
Between the time that I leave and I arrive
Time passage during travel, reminiscing in the back seat
The past is in the back seat with the dead of quiet
Mixing past experiences with the quiet of the deceased
Half the time, I think I'm crazy
Reiteration of inner conflict and self-doubt
And the other half the time, I wish I was
Expressing a wish for an alternate mental state
All the waiting I've done, for some sense of things to come
Continued anticipation for clarity without fulfillment
But it never does
Reiteration of the perpetual lack of clarity
All the waiting I've done, for some sense of things to come
Repetition of waiting for a sense of purpose or understanding
But it never does
Emphasis on the persistent lack of resolution
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