Lyrics
Drinking Again
Expressing the act of drinking again.
V1
Beginning of verse 1.
It’s just a tough place
Describing a difficult mental state.
My mental stay stuck and I can’t escape
Feeling stuck mentally with no escape.
Sometimes I fear I might loose it all
Fear of losing everything, particularly concerned for the daughter due to her mother's absence.
My daughter hurtin and I understand it’s tough cause her mama’s gone
Understanding the daughter's pain in the absence of her mother.
See they think I’m lucky
Perceived as lucky, but facing financial challenges.
And I’m made of money
Being perceived as wealthy, possibly due to hustling.
They know I hustle daily so they try take it from me
Dealing with attempts to take away earnings earned through daily hustle.
I rob Peter to pay Paul
Engaging in financial struggles, robbing Peter to pay Paul.
Jogging around blocks headphones on I’m tryna stay strong
Trying to stay mentally strong through daily activities.
I’m getting older so I see things differently
Gaining a different perspective with age.
I been alone, so you not caught up in my misery
Being alone to avoid burdening others with personal struggles.
I ain’t perfect, matter of fact I feel like a failure
Acknowledging imperfection and feeling like a failure.
I just keep my faith and that’s word to Mahalia
Finding strength in faith, referring to Mahalia Jackson.
Sometimes it’s the wife getting on my nerves
Conflict with the wife causing stress.
So I’m drunk by myself trying not to hit the curb
Drinking alone to cope with stress and avoid reckless behavior.
It’s 1 am and I’m just swerving to the house
Driving home in an intoxicated state.
Take my last drink and pass out on the couch
Taking a last drink before passing out on the couch.
V2
Beginning of verse 2.
I’m sitting here starring at the wall
Contemplating life's challenges, feeling overwhelmed.
Wondering if this is really worth it all
Questioning the worthiness of current struggles.
I’m doing good in life
Despite material success, internal pain persists.
I don’t want for much
Content with life but haunted by emotional pain.
The pain is all in my head
Mental anguish is the primary struggle.
I can’t seem to give it a push
Unable to overcome emotional pain.
Traumatic situations never go away
Unresolved traumatic situations lingering.
I still rub the scars from the blade that changed everything
Physical scars from a life-changing incident.
Another glass of Pinot Noir
Turning to alcohol, specifically Pinot Noir.
Pacing in the garage
Pacing, possibly reflecting inner turmoil.
Money don’t solve problems
Money doesn't solve emotional problems.
You bought an open bar
Referencing purchasing an open bar but not solving deeper issues.
Therapy
Therapy as a means to confront and process struggles.
A way to sort through it all
Sorting through emotions to regain self-confidence.
So I can look in the mirror and stand tall
Gaining strength to face oneself in the mirror.
I’m my worst enemy the lost prophet
Internal struggles, viewing oneself as a lost prophet.
Looking down the barrel through the scope
Contemplating self-destructive actions.
I’m my target
Becoming one's own target in life's challenges.
Nightmares and dreams that brings cold sweats
Nightmares and dreams causing distress.
Only to wake up and realize he ain’t done with me yet
Acknowledging ongoing challenges despite waking up.
Days like this
Admiring days of relative peace and stability.
I admire most
Expressing admiration for moments of tranquility.
So I climb out of my pain, and get back on post
Overcoming pain and returning to responsibilities.
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