Stone
A Bittersweet Reflection: Life's Trials and Unfulfilled Gestures
Lyrics
I called the bank
I contacted the bank
They can't seem to get enough
They are insatiable or always in need
Went and bought a scratcher with my last ten bucks
Spent my last ten dollars on a lottery ticket
Got Z's, P's, and D's on the bottom of the card
Scratcher card has Z's, P's, and D's on it
Thinking how am I so down on my luck
Reflecting on being consistently unlucky
Cause I am not free like you
Expressing a lack of freedom compared to someone else
This world is so big and cruel
Describing the world as large and harsh
I watched them lay you down with their gardening tools
Witnessed someone being buried with gardening tools
And I couldn't even buy you a stone
Couldn't afford to buy a gravestone for someone
No, I couldn't even buy you a stone
Reiteration of not being able to buy a gravestone
Here's a toast to my dissatisfaction
Toasting to discontent
If I were pleased, I would never need a glass
Contentment means not needing a glass for toasting
I take my bills straight from the mailbox
Ignoring bills by discarding them
And I throw them in the trash
Disregarding financial responsibilities
My mediocre settlement has come and met it's due
Receiving a mediocre settlement
I'm going under from my head to my shoes
Feeling overwhelmed from head to toe
And all I really want to do is talk to you
Desiring communication in tough times
I guess you turned to God because you were scared
Speculating about someone turning to God out of fear
And then you turned to me in hopes I'd answer your prayers
Being sought for support in prayer
But in your final hours, I failed to be there
Regret for not being there in a person's final moments
No, I couldn't even answer the phone
Couldn't even answer the phone during a critical time
No, I couldn't even answer the phone
Reiteration of not answering the phone
Well I had this dream that I was you
Had a dream of being in someone else's situation
I was lying in that hospital room
Imagining a scene in a hospital room
And I watched me say goodbye
Observing oneself saying goodbye in the dream
Watched my tears fall on your fingers as you died
Watching tears fall during a moment of death
So when I'm free like you
Anticipating freedom similar to another person
We'll be reduced to one last blank stare
Expecting a vacant expression in the end
And no one will come to the funeral home
No one attending the funeral despite promises
Though they all said they'd be there
Expressing a lack of faith in promised support
Burn my body into ashes so black
Request to cremate the body
They'll be sure that I'll never come back
Desire for assurance of not coming back after death
And when they pat the shovel on the top of the plot
Imagining the finality of burial
Well I hope no one buys me a stone
Hoping not to receive a gravestone as a gift
Well I hope no one buys me a stone
Reiteration of not wanting a gravestone
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